fear

I have been sick for almost a week. Today is the first day that I am feeling good. I feel a million times better than I have in a week, but I still only feel about 60% healthy. I missed a lot of work and I have to be okay with that. I can't change it now, and I hope to be out of this job before the middle of the year anyhow. I just have to be patient.

I was supposed to go to the doctor yesterday. I did not. I don't like doctors and they probably would have just given me a prescription for anti-biotics that I'm not sure if I would have been able to take, due to my beliefs. I am glad that I didn't go.As I thought, this wasn't a "physical" illness at all. It was a metaphysical one.

I would imagine it all started with my last meeting with my boss. One of the last questions she asked me was if I liked what I was doing. Of course, the first thing that popped into my head was "NOO!!!!". I wasn't brave enough to say that, though. I said yes, and immediately looked at the floor.

I have always had problems with my throat. I had a cyst when I was in high school that I had to have surgery to get it removed. For as long as I can remember, I would get terrible sore throats 2 - 3 times a year. Always, I'd go to the doctor. They'd tell me "that's about the worst sore throat I've seen in a while." Always, the strep and mono tests would come back negative. I'd be given a prescription for anti-biotics and be on my way. Never was it, what could be causing this. Why are you getting these sore throats so frequently. Now I know, of course, that I have problems expressing myself and speaking my truth.

Liberation unravels the personal "I" and reveals Aware Consciousness

as the nature of one's True Self.

Mind resists this transformation, yet awakening is inevitable.

Oneness is.

Peace 2 U All Ways,

Suzen

I  come from the answer, not the question. In a death experience you learn so much of what this reality truly is and what it is truly not. There no difference that you can compare it to, your imagination can not reproduce it from the telling of someone's story experience. What you hear and the way you hear it, goes beyond the 5 senses. It goes above and beyond far away from the senses, living in the 5 senses is always what we truly know until something shatters that reality. Even a small glimpse of something spiritual begins to unteather the reality.

Most are seeking from the questions to the answer, coming from the answer is knowing 

being caught in two worlds, this and the next as some have done excellent job in coming from the questions to the answer in there openness and how they realize the internal workings.

Is easy to say, you can repeat memorize words of others and reflect from the mind sounds wonderful and never touches the heart, where the pain and suffering lies, when people talk and revel from the soul do you hear the crying.

I awoke in a vision state once there was a noise that awoke me, i could see a shadow on the other side of the room it was crying sobbing it was curled up tight, it was staring at me I could intuitively feel it, I went over to this shadow to see who this was, than i felt it, saw it, it was me apart of me that was alone and cold without love desiring me to love it, staring at me while I slept night after night, I never realized it was there, how did apart of me get there in such a state. I reach out and hugged it loved it and I instantly woke up.

October 20, 2012

Today all old patterns were released and dissolved for Gaia, Humanity since the creation of time. (of old energy of consciousness, fantasy, fear, illusion, illusion of power)

Clearing of Gaia Chakras', etheric body of Gaia, of all karmic slug, and cleansing and purifying.

Gaia was given downloads for:

  That she knows how to ask for help unconditionally.

  That she knows how to receive it unconditionally.

  I am impervious to evil.

  A choice to have free choice.

  Removal of all old patterns, kept lessons learned, release of  

  emotional, physical trauma. Restore Gaia

  Gaia knows how to,when to, what it feels like to receive unconditional love

 Removal of cords, hooks, attachments, enties for Gaia.

Portal Opened for: 

12 Fountains of Abundance were opened for Gaia, Humanity - only one was open before.

 LynMarie and Tom G.

Set up System to Release of geology pressure of Rio Grand Rift - Which covers States of Arizona, Colorado, New Mexico,Nevada, and Utah

Blessing were given to all to receive upon completion of work.

My heart is longing for peace and harmony as  still ego and division is preached or hold on to. There is no unity in duality. When do you step over your shadow?  When do you step out of this is my way and group and we know what is best or better said. When do you stop  the competition of actions,  explanations, words, beliefs, patterns.  We make a stand for unity between the lightworkers around the world as we have only one common goal:  ending the old duality system and bringing the new paradigm as a blue-print online.

We can make that difference if we all are focused on our mutual goal and focus  from our heart on that which is already ready but needs to be manifested by our combined powers. We will clear the last shadows and will bring in the light on earth for ever. So step out of your walls you have built arround your own truths and beliefs.  Break through those walls prohibiting you from uniting with all.  We are all One. Act upon it and be One with all.  It is time to set a side your so-called grouches, animosities, your hate, your fears, your ego, playing victim. It is time to start together in unity that what is our new world to be. Stop keeping the old cycle going.  You are asked to do this now.

I observe  lots of  words be written with lots of meanings, or hidden emotions of fear, anger, etc.  I see the thoughts broadcasted to you all and  all you do is sending it out again like some transmitters re-sending signals  and amplifying them.   

If you see that words of hate, anger, war, are just spread with their negative energies that way than you can stop it. It is alright to address things ones or even feel things ones, but let go of it. The repetition of the negative words and its meanings  are not what we should do.

I observe thoughts being picked up and translated by those not in their hearts in being angry themselves, in feeling ashamed, in feeling hurt or feeling overwhelmed. It is those not being grounded to mother earth that will be easier feeling the signals coming in from all the negative.

I observe a lot of you being not thinking from the heart and transmitting not love but the negative signals coming in or translated from your own experience by the mind. It will only enable you to manifest again the thoughts you fear quicker and not those you love to see. 

So i know this is long overdue, and i offer my apoligies (however you spell that word) as its been bothering me everyday that i keep telling myself im gunna write this blog, but even on the most boring days, i cant find the time to write it out. i guess maybe i wasnt floating in the right groove to explain it properly until this morning. who knows. that being said, lets get this scary shit going here =p 
 

I hear the words of war and violence, weapons and aggression a lot.  Why are we using those words  if we do not really intent to have war, violence, dead, wounded, hurt and oppressed people deep down in our hearts.

The war mongering and cry for war is not only seen in the common way of the word war but also in actions that lead to division, exclusion, ridiculing,etc.  Warring factions are on the loose so it seems everywhere in (little) groups, at home and even in groups weaponizing them to the teeth with all they got.

What are you fighting really for I ask. Is war not of the old paradigm?  If we wanna grow and make that quantum leap as  human kind we need to stop thinking  that way.  We need to see that we only have to fight our inner battle. Within our selves we need to seek the so-called battle field in addressing the duality issues and getting our energy field increased and our chakras opened and aligned.

Dear Beloved Earth Children,

It feels sort of like taking your child to the doctor.  You are saying a bunch of calm words, painting lots of pretty pictures about the ice cream cone that’s coming after the office visit, yet you know there is a part that’s painful.  You hate that part.

My children wised up to the idea and ask before we get there, “Am I gonna get a poke?”  That’s what I want to know now.

“Are we gonna get a poke?”  We’ve been living in a controlled, tightly limiting world and are told every day of the wonders that await us.  Yet, beneath it all is buried a nagging sense that there is something we need to shore up for.  My kids put their game faces on.  They know it’s quick, necessary and there is a treat at the end.  Although they didn’t like it, they have lived through it and emerged more powerful and sure of themselves.

We will too.  Ascension, this Shift and the Golden Age is waiting for us.  As eternal beings of immense power and unlimited love, we would create nothing less.  The controls are completely in our hands. We know how to use them now.

It is my very human part that wants to know, “Am I gonna get a poke?”  Some days I don’t care, and they happen with more frequency.  What’s on the other side of the poke, if it comes, is more than amazing.  I know this.  I have seen some of it already.

We can do anything we set our hearts on.  This is truth.  We are an unstoppable force; the force of One.  I have seen miracles.  The greatest one is reading these words right now.

We are the ones we are waiting for.

www.sophialove.org

All parts count.  There is not one aspect of life that pales in comparison to any other.  If there was a word that defined this transformation we are participating in, it would be equality – all is One.  Coming from a thought system with comparisons at every turn, this is a challenge.

Do I have enough?  Which is better? How can I get more? Which product will make me look the best? What do I have to do to win? Will I finish first? Did I come in last? These ideas, indeed these words, have no meaning in an atmosphere of oneness.

We have entered the Head Games.  How we think is critical to what we create.  We are beginning to get the idea of oneness; at times we are giddy with joy!  It’s all okay! I love you! You love me! I’m okay just as I am! It’s all going to be great!

Yet we are alive in a field of density, with bills to pay, tests to pass, deadlines to meet and people to please.  This is not a forgiving world and the one who is the hardest on you is you.  In order to manage these internal games, we must forgive ourselves.

As we begin agape, all sorts of ideas spring forth.  Perfection for one becomes not a state to strive for but a statement of fact.  Life is perfection.  Best is not an exclusive rank but an attribute we all enjoy.  In a world of one it all looks like love, differently expressed.

Without the stress of competition or judgment what is left is pleasure.  I have previously imagined it would take miracles and magic to erase the physical signs of aging.  I was wrong.  It will take a cessation of worry and a mind without fear.  The calm of unity is like a fountain of youth.  The truth of us looks like joy and pleasure, love and freedom.  Equality means it’s all good.

~St Petersburg Craft~

February 29 2012: Dear Dr. Phil, we are moving into a time of love of light now .... your persistent highlighting of the darkness in every show, every day, negates the light. You have a tremendous opportunity to help move millions towards healing .... pure water, food, loving nature, animals. We are being told to remember who we are - to move into the light. Fear on mainstream media is ending. You have a choice of going either way Dr. Phil. Love & Light. Dawn Ford ~ freelancing for the light.