lonely but not alone [1]

since my ascension began to manifest itself on may 18 2013 a lot has been learned.  The reason I remember this date is it the day a bulldozer destroyed my sanctuary. granted it may not of seemed special to the naked eye. but it provided me I am a sanctuary to hide from the rat race of a world we lived in. I was a able to venture out only to be scared but what I witnesses . then returning to my heaven was able to pray meditate and heal. it will be almost three months since I have been able to return with the probability of never being able were does a being go when their sanctuary is destroyed. anyway enough said . through my research I have realized their are those protecting me. 144000 to be precise and fear is not a problem. its the constant manipulation of me by those around me in order to see their end manifest without openly asking me that upsets me the most. if the truth be know I just soon live with those I call the shadow beings and bird beings/ at least they presented there self on their arrival some 4 or 5 years ago.  whats a guy to do? just ask