Lightworkers Mission? [1]

So as so called light worker, I went down the Rabbit Hole a few years ago. I know how the world works now and I do not want to be a part of a matrix system. I held on to the belief that the good will win. I read many channelings about how abundance is coming and to believe that It will be for us. I even went so far as to buy some Dinar and was on that bandwagon of when I get the money I will do this and that to help others. I read many blogs and followed some for awhile, the ones that I resonated with. I put some energy into the OPPT group and the banking system. I read Sheldon Nigel's reports. Poof/Zap reports. Some Cobra. some Ben Fulford. Believed in what I felt was right for me and let the other go..The Gaia Portal is a changing event happening now. So with all of this changing energy, things are so soon/close/right now, why is it that so many light workers are still in the same position as before. Many lost or are losing there homes. Out of money. Myself included now half to go back into the system and play the game again to just be able to live. Its not material, its just living. I cannot do one more visual abundance video, or chant or Clean Clutter my place..And you can say I am doing something wrong and I can look at it that way,,but its not just me..I know of at least 12 women who are in the same spot and all are saying REALLY? After holding the light and being,,now we get to all go back to JOBS that are unfulling.. So I just had to make my point..Just a little fed up with this 3D/4D/5D thinking. And now I am DOING a JOB to just make it here on earth. Just do not get it anymore.