Namaste Dear Friends  ~

It was brought to my awareness about 20years ago about letting-go of attachments as they can be like a heavy stone tied with a rope around your ankles!    In other words, they can really hold one back.   I was fortunate to receive some teachings back then that opened up my spiritual world, both within and in outer life as well.   I was a nurse in a small private hospital at the time, and had my first awakening to the fact that every human is part of God/Source.  I decided to put this new awareness into action when I took care of my patients.   My approach to their personal care, such as bathing and shaving the men, turned into a sacred experience.   This is because I was mindful, the whole time, I was bathing an elderly patient.   It was the most heartfelt experience to see a human from the awareness of divinity.  It changed my whole life.

by Ann Kreilkamp July 11, 2013

Yesterday presented a turning point in my retreat. I had been feeling down under, lugubrious, wasted, I presume as a result of the July 4th ordeal. My adrenals were shot.

So I rested, and waited, and meditated. And watched my tricky mind make up stories, and ponder imponderables. A difficult passage. I was up against the impossible, and didn’t see a way through.

Then, yesterday morning, during my first of three daily meditations, I felt the whole imponderable mess as a powerful emotional blockage in my solar plexus. Really felt it. Felt my way into it. Allowed it to fully be. (Have you ever actually seen the “solar plexus”? It’s an enormous branching array of nerves, like Grand Central, for the human nervous system.)

And, as I expected, that surrender, almost immediately, allowed the feeling to move. Five minutes later, I endured one of my rare, but unmistakable, cleansing reactions, the entire contents of my bowels releasing into the toilet.

From then on, I could feel a quickening. My energy had reignited, and started to return.

Ida Lawrence July11. 2013

What’s keeping you? Normally this question would be answered with something like… “I took the wrong road…”, “I had to deal with something…”, “I’ll need to get more money…”, “I have to think about it…”. You are what’s keeping you.

I want to talk about the deeper ‘what’s keeping you’ question. What’s keeping you when the answer to your inner prayer – your spiritual need – is one step away, and you see it but you pause before taking the step? Maybe you think I’m going to encourage you to jump in there and take the leap of faith, but no. I’m inquiring about the space between you and the fulfillment. What is in that space?

Recalling a dream that I had several years ago: in the dream I looked through a window and saw a scene of rolling hills and natural beauty… but it was far more than a scene that I saw. My body took in the feeling of it and a moan escaped my lips. The place was my home… where I had left the greater part of me. In that moment I experienced the intensity of spiritual need: being in this 3D world, and not being where my heart ached to be. In the dream I tried to walk through the window and into it. Then the message came through that it was a simulation I was seeing, and not a real place.