I am experiencing fear.

 I say experiencing it because I am not drowning in it like I did when my inner critic would beat it to death.  I am just feeling it and asking for guidance as to why it's presenting itself to me.  Life is a bit more calm for me which is utterly out of the scope of my previous reality.  So this fear is not the kind that is frightening and needing a pound of white light and love to conquer it.  It is just there with a message for me.

I am going through this process where my dreams are quickly becoming reality.  Where my connection to Prime Creator and my energy guides is becoming stronger.  Where my astral travels are becoming more substantial.  I am learning knew skills to heal myself and teach others. 

And I am reminded I have been here before.

2007 was a year of great change for me.  I began daily meditation.  I learned to write my goals and true desires down on paper and give them up to my guides to manifest.  I began to physically feel energies around me.  I learned then that I don't see things, I feel them and know that it is.  So I began to feel peoples moods and know their thoughts. 

It wasn't until I took my reiki level one atunement though that things got really out of my control and scary for me.  I took the course to help heal my son of some of his ailments.  Within a week of attaining the gift of healing hands I crossed paths with a broken winged Raven.  My totem animal.  The day after that I watched a puppy get hit by a car, but was too afraid to help lest I looked like a fool(and there were others on site pretty quick).  My teacher warned that both incidents were creator needing my services of light.  I didn't want to use the gift for that, just my son.  The very next day a paraplegic flipped his wheel chair in front of my van.    I got out and laid my hands on him while we waited for the ambulance.  I was mortified.