Eden Clark:Authenticity: Being of One Heart

Then came the big one.

Without attaching to story, there had been one situation in my life that had left me unsettled and I had not been able to bring into balance despite ceremonies, healing work, shamanic protection, H’onoponopono’s (see my past article), and anything else I could throw at it.  Its one of those situations I had never been able to understand no matter how hard I looked at it, no matter how much I forgave the other person for what they did and continue to do, no matter how much love I offered in the real-world or energy-world.  Not to mention, no matter how much money I had to pay my lawyer and his threatening them with restraining orders or slander lawsuits (yes, it’s been that nuts).  Nearly four years since it started, it came back out of nowhere to roar its head.

My first reaction: gut twisting pain, tears, fear, and a constant hamster wheel of thoughts for my own protection and safety.

My second reaction: how do I take this to a higher level?  Can I (again) go to the energetic world and make amends if I did do something in this life or a past life to bring this on?  How do I hold only love and healing for this situation? How do I finally let this be at peace?

I went into journey to see if I could find the answer, and as a result was shown a beautiful thought for us all to embrace:

THE JOURNEY

I laid down and dove deep into my meditation.  Shortly into my journey I saw myself in a field at night, sitting on a rock, with the stars and moon above.  A Queen-like figure appeared sitting next to me, gazing off in to the distance as if waiting for me to notice her.  She seemed Egyptian in nature by the crown she wore; a beautiful gold tower of metal, jewels and engravings in a language I did not understand.  Her radiance was that of a beautiful Goddess, deeply wise, filled with love, and powerful in her presence.   We sat on the rock in silence as she handed me a cup filled with a luminescent blue liquid.  I drank it down, feeling the cool liquid sink into my body and vibrate into my cells. I felt a shift, as if something was given to help me ease into the next part of our journey.

Handing her back the cup she smiled and pointed up to the stars.

“What do you see?” she said softly.  Her voice was quiet and gentle.

“Stars, the Universe” I replied, squinting my eyes and trying to understand what she was looking at.

“What is it that is out there?” she asked again.

I shrugged, feeling kind of fuzzy from whatever liquid I had just drank.  It felt as if my energy body was lifting and I was trying hard to stay seated on the rock.

“What is it you fear?” she stated simply, as if re-phrasing her question.

With that I felt a pain shoot across my heart and my chest began to ache.

“I fear being hurt, I feel losing something, I just fear there’s something I’m not seeing that can harm me” I replied.

“It is because you are not fully Authentic.”

Her statement confused me and I immediately felt my ego flare up.  “I’m well aware of my shadows” I thought to myself, and reflected on all the areas in my life where I was now fully expressing who I was, speaking my voice, and opening my heart. I felt I had done a good job of coming in to alignment with who I truly was and expressing my Essence.

Again I felt my heart ache, like a dull throb that echoed through my entire body.  I knew that was my soul’s way of getting my attention and drive me to look deeper.  I wasn’t going to escape this lesson.

She turned to me and in the next instant I saw us in a canoe of sorts, floating down a river surrounded by jungle.  I could see tribes people peering out at me from behind their huts.  She was in front, gently guiding us along the soft flowing river.

“Where are we going?” I asked, curious as to the change of scenery.

“Into the heart” she replied without turning around.

I understood.  We were going in to the heart of the jungle, both physically and metaphorically.  It was a space I had traveled to many times before when I was being taught deep lessons.

As we meandered deeper and deeper into the dense jungle canopy I felt protected. I was at home here, as one would when they return to their Source.

I felt ready to begin the lesson, so I turned to her and asked;

“What does it mean to truly be Authentic?”

“To be of One Heart” she replied.

I saw flashes of all those aspects of myself that were not one with my true Essence.  I saw masks, fears, and situations where I hid so I would not be hurt or not hurt others. I saw where I was scared that something – My home? My life? My soul? My happiness? – could be taken away.

Knowing my thoughts she asked,

“Do you still fear there is something to be taken from you?”

I contemplated the healing I had done in years past around Scarcity.  Our entire Western culture is built upon this concept: fear there won’t be enough money, enough food, enough shelter, enough energy, enough “stuff”, and so we get caught in a terrible cycle of buying more to make us feel we have “enough” while being completely disconnected to the enormous Abundance available to us. You cannot stand in the fear of “not having” while simultaneously stand in abundance. They are two opposite energies.  Love versus Need. One is based in joy and selflessness; one is based in fear and selfishness. When I chose abundance and let go of the need to “have” out of fear of “have not”, I was truly brought everything I needed in all senses; money, food, shelter, and love.

Answering her back as best I could, I replied;

“I have let go of scarcity but yes, for some reason it still feels there is something that can be taken from me”.

She answered “You are not yet of One Heart, that is why you fear there is something to be taken”.

She then continued this lesson in a dazzling mix of images, energy, and words;

I saw my heart as pure white light, opening up to the greater Universe.  I saw us out in the middle of space floating above the Earth, surrounded by nebulas and stars and witnessing the breathing of the heart of the Universe (at times referred to as Brahma in Eastern practices).  I was then brought back to the heart of the jungle, its people, the animals, the lush plants, and the water.  Everything was swirling together in a beautiful display of energy that was around me and in me. I was as much part of the jungle as it was of me. I felt at home here because it was me, and I was it.

“If you are One Heart with All That Is, dear one, there is nothing to be taken.  For you are everything, and everything is you, so what is there to take?”

She paused as if to make sure I was following her, then continued;

“When you are of One Heart, with nothing to hide and no shadows or ego left to hide behind, what is there to fear?  Being of One Heart means to recognize there is only One Heart, one Energy, that is shared by everything and everyone in the Universe”.

I sat in silence, allowing the energy of her words to sink deep within me.  The concept of being one with the Universe was not new to me, but to truly feel it, understand it, and recognize it within my Heart as an example of true Authenticity took it to a deeper level of wisdom I had still not embraced.

What I came to witness was that being truly Authentic was not just a matter of letting go that which you hide behind and expressing your true Essence, but rather the ultimate expression of Authenticity is merging into Oneness with All That Is so there is no inauthenticity of Being at any level.

In the next instant we were back on the rock and she turned to me.

“Do you understand?” she asked smiling.  Her eyes were twinkling with the grace of a true Queen.

Wide-eyed I nodded yes, knowing I was grasping at a concept and energy far greater than my human brain could truly understand.

She then pointed out towards the field and I looked up to see a group of Light Beings floating our way.

“Your guides have arrived” she said and we stood up to greet them.

In that instant they formed a circle around me, pouring light and love into my heart.  I saw my body, my brain, and my luminous self begin to vibrate with an intensity of light that was healing and shifting whatever it was that needed to be healed.

In what is hard to put into words, the next moment I felt the Queen step in to me and a deep wisdom grow within me.  As if growing into the power, I felt my arms rise up and suddenly I could see beautiful wings on either side of me, gently flapping to the beat of the energy pouring in to me.  I felt a powerful gold crown above my head that contained the round orb of the Moon. I breathed in this stunningly beautiful energy as it engulfed every essence of my being.  I then saw flashes of Egyptian hieroglyphics and images of a Queen, arms outspread with multicolored wings and a gold orb above her head.  In that instant I recognized her as Isis, the Egyptian Goddess and Ascended Master.

Tears ran down my face as I thanked her for the wisdom, bowed to my Guides and brought my journey to a close, relishing in the beauty of the journey.

As I returned to my conscious body, I allowed this new wisdom to sink deep within me as I drifted off to sleep.

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The next day I researched the origins of Isis – both the patriarchal views of her in mythology as well as the Goddess culture references.  Interestingly enough, I came to learn she is known as a protector and goddess “from whom all beginnings arose” and is often called “The One Who Is All”.

No doubt, her lesson of Authenticity, One Heart, and being One with All is a powerful part of our collective evolution as we continue into unity consciousness.

For me, I was able to step away from fear and better understand how being my Authentic self, with nothing to hide, brings me one step closer to being One with All in the truest sense of the word.  It is not just that “God is within”, but that weare God, Source, and pure Creation.  That is our highest calling.

There is a native ancestor saying that goes something like this:

“The Trees Am I, The Birds Am I, The Ocean Am I”.

So if I am all that, and that is all me, then there really is nothing to fear as there is absolutely nothing that can be lost.  Losing our Self comes from our feeling of separation from Source and each other, and so when we recognize we are Source, as is everything else, we are truly of One Heart.

And that is a beautiful thing.

In love & light,

Eden

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