Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.
~ Martin Luther King, Jr.
Blessings Siblings,
(December 17th, 2012 about 7am) Location South 8th & Bedford Avenue, Brooklyn, NY
This morning...
My mom and I got bumped by a driver in an SUV as we were crossing the street. We fell like dominoes. My mom was knocked over first. I don't know how it happened but we got bumped over a few feet. Even with all the loud screaming the driver (who was thankfully driving slow) didn't stop right away.
In fact, he didn't stop at all. He didn't get out of the car. He didn't say I'm sorry. He didn't ask if we were ok...
I asked and eventually ended up screaming for him to get out of the car. I told him that I wanted to make sure my mom was ok. And get his information. He backed up the car and with a blank look... drove away (in another direction).This has been a humbling morning... I saw my moms life and mine flash before us and the possibility of both of us getting sucked under the car...We are blessed. We have a few bumps and bruises.What aches more is my heart. I felt so much anger and helplessness when that man drove away. Where was his humanity?With Dec 21st a few days away, I know I need to be with this raw and allow all the emotions to surface as they need to. I am releasing so much right now. At the same time, my heart is filled with gratitude. I am grateful that mom and I are ok.
I also forgive this driver and bless his path. He gave me a powerful reminder to cherish the moment and the people I love...even those big pains in the necks we have in our lives ;-)
December 18th, 2012 About 8am
I've been contemplating... Laying down mostly and honoring my need for rest and tenderness at this time. My body feels tired and beat up. Emotionally, I feel drained. I don't even feel like speaking. I feel my heart almost stop when I allow my mind to wander into the "what ifs"...
I hear my higher self whispering and she reminds me to look at the now...
And right now, at this moment, my mother and I are safe in our homes. This is what matters...
Why have I chosen to forgive this man? Because I don't want to carry or bottle up this poison that the accident stirred up. Forgiveness allows me to surrender my emotions and heal from this experience. It allows a pathway for my emotions to flow out of me. Having a vengeful heart only hurts me in the long run.
At the time of the incident, my mom and I were walking out of a 5:30am Aguinaldo Mass which was followed by a community breakfast. My mom and I honestly feel that we were divinely protected/shielded. We don't know how we managed to get bumped/pushed by this SUV a few feet without getting injured.
There is a lot to be grateful for...
December 19th, 2012 about 10am
My mom and I are physically feeling the aches and pains of the accident of few days ago. In many ways, it seems like our bodies are still in shock and craving for stillness. When I contemplate the man who "hit and ran", I can honestly say that I don't feel hatred or resentment. In a weird way, I am feeling compassion for him.
I realize that this incident is much bigger than the accident. I feel like I am releasing a lot of old stuff, ancient stuff, past life trauma stuff... This incident gave me permission to scream, really scream out agony that has been so covertly hidden within me. This incident also brought out the sad heart of the little girl within me that misses the gentle nurturing of her late father. Why? Because this man did the opposite. He didn't nurture us in any way. He ran... and what a theme this has been in my life, in many of our lives... A lot of us "run" when it comes to facing our emotions head on.
So here's to welcoming the Divine Feminine... Our world really needs this balancing. I need it and welcome it graciously.
Happy awakenings! Happy ascension! Many blissings!
your sister Rosangel Perez,
Blogger, Soulfuldancer, Wellness Coach, Host & Creator of Blog Talk Radio Show, "Cafecito Break"
