No Longer Who We Are, Rather What We Are

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Posted on August 27, 2016
This is an image I am trusting my cousin, Julia will allow me to borrow. It is a beautiful elm tree that survived the blight of decades ago to hold its majesty across a farm pond that was a part of my youth. This image brings back the laughter and squeals of jumping in on a summer's day with my siblings and friends. I love seeing her reflected glory. She reminds me to stand tall in mine.

This is an image I am trusting my cousin, Julia will allow me to borrow. It is a beautiful elm tree that survived the blight of decades ago to hold its majesty across a farm pond that was a part of my youth. Julia recently revisited this place bringing back the laughter and squeals of my youth as we jumped in on a summer’s day. I love seeing this tree’s reflected glory. She reminds me to stand tall in mine.

The change can be felt in the air. California skies are still blue and heat fills the days and yet…..there is a quickening towards autumn pulsing in the earth. The time of harvest, the gathering in of abundance in all forms. A deep thrum sounds beneath my feet, my cells are dancing in anticipation and the very air holds magic. There is an underlying stillness, a reverent hush before it all manifests into form.

No matter the surface irritants or situations, the joy flame is enlivened with every heart beat. Our minds can be busy focusing on surface things……my nose still looks odd, what do I pack for this trip, how will I adjust my nocturnal wanderings in a houseful of people, while the heart keeps up its steady flame of joy.

I drove out to get a chocolate cupcake....something I have never done but it felt essential in that moment! It was yummy.

I drove out to get a chocolate cupcake….something I have never done but it felt essential in that moment! It was yummy.

We spent years trying to figure out who we were. Now that all drops away as we accustom ourselves to what we are. We are divine beings! Our light is flowing through these vessels at an ever increasing rate. It causes all kinds of strange aches and pains and symptoms as it flushes out all that is not love in its path. It demands presence and attention which can feel disorienting. I find myself having no memory of the moment before. I open the gate to drive the car through……did I just open that gate or was it open? I intend to make a phone call to someone, the next moment I am calling someone else. This happened with a family issue and my former hubby asked why I did not call him first rather than our son. I looked at my phone record, certain that I had called him first. No, I did not. I said, “I have no explanation. I simply do not understand any more than you do.” Of course, I witnessed how that brought up pain in him. It was soft and quick to move through but nevertheless, something old was released.

Reflections, mist, mystery. Sink into it all and allow the new to be revealed.

Reflections, mist, mystery. Sink into it all and allow the new to be revealed.

I say I have decided not to eat that and the next second, I find myself eating it. I want no more possessions, then I find myself at the thrift store purchasing a sugar and creamer set with a lovely blue pattern of flying birds that simply lit up my heart. I intended it for my son and his bride to be but they are wanderers with no fixed abode. Yet for the few mornings while we are all gathered in Vermont before the wedding or the few months they remain there, its beauty will lift hearts. There is something going on…..something demonstrating to myself that it is not this or that. It is not one thing, rather it is all things. What is important, is following the joy thread. If in that moment, it lifts me, then it is all good.

We are entering a time that may have heightened chaos on levels we have yet to experience and it feels like this is training camp. We have to be able to flow in each moment with what is. We drop all regard for what was, even if it was truly a moment prior and we act from our hearts in this moment, and this moment, and this. Our minds are not used to this and may protest as they like a linear progression and consistency. Our hearts, taking direction from our own divine self, are now steering the ship. We no longer have to trust ourselves, ( the me we think of as self) even that can be let go of. Our divinity has us in its hands. We are so cherished, guided and protected in each moment. We can fully trust our divine nature and simply be.

Liquidlovelight rain on me!

Liquidlovelight rain on me!

The freedom in this is astounding and so appreciated by my Aquarian nature. It is the free fall, the bungee jump into the arms of our beloved self. There is no holding back, planning will become a thing of the past as we learn to navigate the flow. Just as flocks of birds, wheel and dance across the sky in undulating patterns, so shall we move as one. Each knowing and following the inner compass that offers the direct route to each one’s highest good. Oh, can you feel the peace in that? Flowing with one another in harmony. Attuned to the Creator with each breath. I am so grateful to be here for this ride. To be able to know this joy in this beautiful body elemental who has served me so faithfully these many lifetimes. I do not know the shape of what lies ahead but I feel it. Its refrain is, all is well sung to the Hallelujah chorus. Own this knowing no matter what the surface reality presents, whether in our bodies, in our politics, in our environment. As we send out the signal, all is well, we create that reality. Feel that, know that, claim your power. It is time. All is in readiness, we must shake off all that we thought we knew, forget all the old lines and characters we once played. It is a new play and we each have new roles. The adventure awaits. We have no lines to learn as this is improvisation theatre. A thrill ride for sure! Flow into our hearts, and we will hear our cue and deliver our lines effortlessly. Oh the heady joy of it! We are ready my friends, we are ready.