From: Pamela Shreveport, LA, USA
Report of My Twelfth Week of Initiations for Rites of Passage -- December 9, 2012 – December 15
Sunday – December 9, 2012
I’m really nervous about 12/12/12, but I’m also excited. The meditation is awesome.
Monday – December 10, 2012
A perfect day of bliss. It started out with my mother asking me to go on the bus and run errands
for her. I felt myself respond with the same selfish “no,” but I didn’t say it. I allowed my guides
to remind me to be of service. I agreed to go. Then, I allowed my guides to remind me to do my
best. Something inside of me let go.
All of a sudden, my brother showed up in the cab he drives. Instead of spending hours on the
bus, I was with my brother. The entire trip took an hour.
One of the things I had to do was go to Wal-Mart. While in Wal-Mart, I began to call on the
Divine in all. I felt absolutely wonderful. I saw this woman standing by the egg section. She
looked like a stranger, but then she didn’t. She looked familiar. She was a little old lady in her
mid-60s. Normally, I would have walked by her without acknowledgment, unless, of course, she
turned and made eye contact as we Southerners do…a standard greeting—a smile and then
move on.
Then, I realized what was different. She was a Tucker – someone from the Tucker family. She
looked like the mother of the family of 22 children, but she was too young.
I went straight up to this woman without hesitation (compelled) and asked her if she was
a Tucker. She smiled and told me that she was – that she was the oldest child and asked
me which one of the children I knew. I told her and then, she began to talk. I realized that I
was involved in a conversation of pure sunshine. Something that had been promised to us
was happening to me. I had met a fellow lightworker. Although, as a Christian, she probably
would not profess the existence of Galactics, she spread her light far and wide and I was being
showered withit.
My entire day was blissful until the end when my mother asked me to do something for her. I
closed up and my night went south.
Tuesday – December 11, 2012
I woke up with the intent of letting things flow through me. I was able to do this consciously
for a while. I felt strongly guided to acknowledge myself as a member of the group Monad
because I needed the members to carry me. Something was wrong. My intent was clear – to let
the energy flow, but somehow, I was blocking it. I felt, all day as if I were operating on auxiliary
power instead of actually being plugged in. Only by acknowledging the help that I had was I
able to begin my preparations for the meditations of 12/12/12.
Wednesday – December 12, 2012
My 12/12/12 meditation: I decided to meditate at 12:12am. My mind was clear, clear enough
to understand that I have not completely surrendered to service. I still hold residual fears and
doubts. However, the veils are thinning and the day is far from over.
Service is the doorway to getting what I want. Probably, I was eager to incarnate because
I knew the opportunity of what lay on the other side of service – for example, meeting the
Tucker woman when I only intended to pick up a few items for my mother.
For me, service has always been couched in an illusion of manipulation and coercion. It never
occurred to me that service was a gateway or portal to other timelines and dimensions, to
growth and expansion. This is the compensation I have both desired and feared all throughout
this incarnation. Viewed in this manner, surrendering to service becomes a grand adventure.
Now, I want to place this in my heart so that this understanding becomes my snap reaction.
During meditation, I saw the flower of life. It is a representation of the way our energy fields
interweave with one another. The patterns establish cohesion among energy fields and support
creation.
Animals use their tails to ground themselves to the earth, receiving an electromagnetic
connection.
Fairies danced around me during my meditation. I felt them more so than I saw them. They
were working, but I don’t know what they were doing.
Surrendering means acknowledging that I am exactly where I am supposed to be and that my
job is to nurture the moment with light and love.
“Imagine looking into your heart chakra and seeing the universe of the creator with all souls
lovingly smiling back at you.” Metatron
Instead of fear – expect a loving embrace.
Thursday – December 13, 2012
For me, the veil of illusion is still intact. I’m still choosing to see it as real.
I want to wallow in self-pity, but my guides are telling me to learn to consciously choose
ascension. To choose to consciously raise my vibration so that I attract those who can help me
keep my vibration high. To keep improving on making a choice to love. To keep getting better at
learning to love.
“Your mission will be to manifest all the beauty of and the universe of the Creator which is
limitless into physical manifestation on the Earth of all to experience.” Metatron
“You must tap into and pursue your desire for excellence and strive to live your passion to the
very best of your ability. “ Michael
If something in me has been activated it is a stronger desire to learn to love – to connect to
everything through love – to become more proficient at using the tools and talents gifted to me
to develop and strengthen my ability to love.
I thought that something would snap on and all of a sudden I would be transformed into
a recognizable 5D being, but that didn’t happen. I still respond to the illusions of the veil;
although, I acknowledge that the veil is thinning.
This is still an unfolding, a step-by-step process fueled by the energies of love.
Something strangely wonderful happened yesterday. I had decided for 12/12/12 I would
meditate in conjunction with groups meditating at 12:12am, 12:12pm, and 12:12am (Thursday).
I wanted to do this in full consciousness. For the first two legs of the cycle, I was successful, but
I fell asleep Thursday morning. I was very disappointed about this.
When I woke up for the day, it seemed as if nothing had changed. This fed my disappointment.
My spiritual guides were encouraging me to read three articles – teachings by AA Michael,
AA Metatron, and Adama. When I tried to read these articles, I felt a burning sensation as if
between my intention and the article itself, there was a fire. It was kind of like this: You see
something valuable in a fire that you know you must retrieve, but in order to get it, you’ve got
to reach into the fire to get it. That was how I began to read the articles. I was only able to read
one or two paragraphs or sentences of each article, but that was enough to change my focus
from disappointment to a desire to acknowledge the love within me.
Once this shift began, I understood that there was no need to try and acquire any more
knowledge until I had mastered what was in those articles. This was very clear to me and the
clarity of it gave me a level of comfort that was unfamiliar, yet strengthening. As the day went
on, the clarity began to grow. I could see the tremendous weight of doubts and how they
drained and stole away my energy.
The best part of this experience is the understanding of the utter pointlessness of dwelling
on negativity. I only have one job right now and that is to shine my light as brightly as I can
using everything I’ve been taught, especially amplifying that light while joining with others. I
am a lightworker, a conduit and a beacon. That’s simple enough. Just work on mastering all of
the ramifications of that acknowledgment and trust that simplicity. This narrowed focus will
magnetize and attract all I need and take me where I need to go.
“Knowledge, talent and a high I.Q. does not create a genius. It takes concentration, courage,
perseverance, tenacity and an ongoing drive, along with integrity, to tap into your spiritual
genius potential. You must tap into and pursue your desire for excellence and strive to live your
passion to the very best of your ability.” AA Michael
“Using your ‘LOVE POTENTIAL’ means sharing your earthly talents, gifts and riches with others,
Love is the catalyst for creation,” AA Michael
Saturday -- December 15, 2012
Clearing my head, sharpening my focus: How can I be a better lightworker?
I’ve studied the materials of the Children of the Sun, but they are still seedlings in my heart.
“It is our unity that is allowing the truth of the Creator to unfold with great freedom and
empowerment into our beings and realities for realization.” AA Metatron
“This process of connection can be achieved with a greater focus upon expanding and
developing the heart chakra, feeling the tremendous love that you hold within your heart
chakra and soul. Allow yourself to focus on your heart chakra and consciously build and radiate
your love with the tool of your breathing. Let your love shine at all times during this sacred
time, but allow space and time for you to sit in unity and oneness with your heart chakra,
allowing your third eye to penetrate your heart chakra. You can ask to see and connect with all
souls experiencing the loving activation at this time.” AA Metatron
Summary:
This past week, for me, has mostly been about letting go. I decided that there is too much
information for me to absorb in my present state of consciousness and that the more I tried to
get information about what to expect, the more confused and doubtful I became. This is why I
decided to focus on light, breathing, and letting go of residual angers, judgments, and doubts
that have managed to linger. I find that it is much easier to receive inner guidance this way. I’m
just trusting that I am doing my best and the tremendous amount of assistance that I am being
given will compensate for my shortcomings. If I don’t do it this way, I will worry myself to death
and that wouldn’t be any fun.
As I write this, I’m listening to piano music by Scott Joplin (Ragtime). I love it. Just thought I’d
share that.
Peace, Blessings, and Love,
Pamela
