~ Lightworker shares their expereince with The Ascension~

~ Lightworker shares their expereince with The Ascension~

By Galactic Love Reporter lightlover1964~

I know that for the most part all of us here always try keeping our energies up and try no to bring lower vibrations in,so therefore there is not much written on the dark side of ascension.
But I think just like there is duality in everything in this 3 d world which we still reside in, there is also duality in ascension.
There is darkness there that needs to be looked at and released as well.

There are days when I feel so connected to Source I wonder if others see me in the sun, is my skin glowing?

Am I as shiny as I feel inside?
Full of love,hope, and peace?

And then I wake up the following day and I feel drained of life.

Tired.
I weep for no reason it seems.
Really it seems sometimes I wail.
The sadness envelops me with such density that I just sit and wait for it to pass through me.
Some would call it a major depression.
Then it is gone.
Then I am up again.

Sometimes I question my sanity.
Am I making this up?
Has my psyche shattered because of finally feeling connected to something?
After a lifetime of never feeling right, never fitting in,have I lost my mind?

After all in the last year I have:
Lost all my friends.
Become a recluse.
Completely changed my eating habits.
Completely changed my drinking habits.
My personality has completely changed.

I used to be the life of the party.
I was always having parties.
Where did everybody go?
I see everything so differently now.
And you know what?
I do not fit into my own world anymore.

Where did I go?
Where did the world I knew go?
Now i spend my days learning.
Waiting.

Grieving a lot.
Swinging from total peace to undescribable sadness.

Inside my body I feel I am changing.
Physically I feel stronger,healthier.
Yet out of nowhere I have gained 15 pounds.
Makes no sense but there it is.
I feel more limber.
And yet I woke up with a terrible cough and terrible chest congestion.
Is it mine or someone else's ?
Or is it both?
What am I releasing?

Doesn't matter anymore, it just matters that it is releasing, in a way sometimes I don't care.

I speak to myself all the time.
Have acquired weird sleeping habits.
Sometimes in the middle of the night I wake up and feel such energy going through me,such heat, yet my partner feels nothing when he touches me.
Many of my dreams come true.
Many of my dreams are so dark they frighten me.
When I dream I know I am dreaming.
I feel I am somewhere else.
Another world.

I speak to AA Michael all day long.
I speak to my cat Ruby.
I speak to my dog Sally.
I speak to the sky and to Mother Earth.
I feel their response in my heart.
Sometimes I see their response in my mind almost like a picture, but not quite as limiting, for it comes with feelings as well.
I have a huge urge to go home yet have no connection to a home.
Have no idea what place I am from.
All I envision is white light and love.
That is home.
Sometimes lately I feel it in my heart.

Every chance I get I tell my awakening story to anyone that listens.
I always ask permission first.
No one has said I am crazy.
In fact it always seems to make perfect sesnse to them.

The ones that hear my story are the ones ready to hear my story.
And when I spread the Light, I feel such peace.
Such joy.
Such bliss.

And then it is gone as I release yet another fear,another past,another life.
And down I go again.
I am like the cork that everyone plays with and constantly pushes down to the bottom of the water glass,just to see it pop back up.
I go down,pop back up.

If I were to see my doctor, he would be seriously concerned about me.
Let's see the list is long but it is not a particularly healthy one he would say...
Bad sleeping.
Weight gain.
Seeing things out of the corner of my eyes.
At night ,opening my eyes and seeing white specs around me, almost like a hologram that is deteriorating.
Crying.
Hearing things.
Becoming a recluse.
Complete change in personality.
Huge mood swings..
Yep!! looney bin for me.

The appearance of being crazy is the dark side of ascension for me.
The symptoms of being crazy is my darkness.

But you know what?
I would feel all these things for that one instant of bliss when I fully connect to Source.
And I know that what used to be one instant has grown to longer moments of feeling unconditional love.
And will continue to grow.
Because I am growing.
Expanding.
Leaving all of the old behind.
Including the insanity that was my life.

So I continue my days between the light and the dark.
I will continue in this body,doing this for as long as is meant for me to do so.
I continue to ascend while descending at the same time.
While I anchor the Light to the grid.
It is what I do.
It is what I have always done,what I will always do.
I am a Lightworker.
I spread the Light.
Even to the dark.
And I am really,really good at it.
As are you all.

Have a beautiful day my family, wether in the light or in the dark we all shine so bright.
Thank you sharing this moment with me.
Know that as we go through this,we are going through it together.
We are all one.
Experiencing ascension in similar but different ways.
And change is here.
Can you feel it?
Eventually the balance will be achieved again, and abundance will be able to be accepted by all as they awaken and remember.
And these moments lived here will be part of the beautiful experience of all of us, as we move forward and expand into what will be.

Light and Love