I can only tell you about my experiences of this -and hope that some one are helped with this
Several years ago before i was awakened i felt trappt inside of me-when i spoke i thought that i wasnt myself enough-and i reaslized that i had to do something about it-i wore a mask-
I was to shy i thought- I felt that i wasnt in my full capacity-i wasnt happy with it-
So i started to create this framework:
I think it was my soul that directed me to this:
My plan was to say a kind word to everyone i meet on the street -in the shoppingcenters-everywere-i laid away all the funny citats and jokes that i had learned and started from scratch-just with an kind word-i wouldnt carry a mask anymore-no plans howe to behave-just trust in to my spountanious soul-in the beginning it was rather scary-but after a while it worked like magic(If we keep it simple)
So my advice is stop thinking to much-just go with the flow
Ttrust your spountainious mind-becase-it will be there for you everytime you need an answer(if you are spountanious you will truly be a beacon of fri independet energy-that none -nowere can take away from you-
With this also comes the power of learn howe to say no in a peacefull way-then the people around you know were you stand-
it is suddenly very easy for them too
It was like driving blindfolded in the beginning-then the other senses started working-The abillyty to feal the energys of other persons-the feeling of no fear for anything enterd my mind-no worries -this was very balanced energys
It was built on trust to my self-i was not awaked yet at this state
Then it came with thise Two toughts-it came when i was bored-booordom is an very unusuall state for me-my life are packed with things-not a dull second-så these two questions popped up in my mind