Yes, I apologize to you and everyone who reads this post.  I screwed up.  I failed the test.  Instead of going with the flow, I now run a course upstream against the current because I couldn't learn my lessons.  I was prompted over and over again to stop smoking and I didn't and more honestly, I couldn't.  I tried laying them down, but repeated failed. However, by the time I did manage to stop, it's now too late.  Something has gotten ahold of me that is quickly taking me down.  My health is failing fast, It hurts to breathe.  My body hurts in places I forgot about.  My cheery outlook has changed to one of depression.  I feel as though the Light that brought ascending miracles has stopped at my feet.  Darkness and the gloom of staying here in the 3D is breaking my heart, especially when I desparately wanted to ascend.  Actually, that's not even the whole truth of it all.  Though I've casted the "fear of the unknown" to the Universe many times, it remains still.  What can one do when the fear stays?  It's a blockage.  It's difficult to move forward. 

     What now?  Am I going to die now before I am able to physically ascend?  Do I have to die in order to ascend?  That's not what I wanted.  I came to see this thing through to the end.  I don't want to stop and stay here with the ones who harm each other.  I wanted a life full of love, light and peace.  I wanted to see the New Earth and her new inhabitants in all their glory. 

Greetings Dear GFP Family!

     I was asked by Mother/Father God to share this experience I had early this morning.  I feel that it will be beneficial to many who have not yet experienced Unconditional Love.

     Early this morning while in a lucid sleep, suddenly I was taken "upward".  Deep in my mind, the word "allow" came to mind as I was taken swiftly up, up, up, much like a head rush, to an unknown place in which I believe was the 5th Dimension.  Upon my arrival, two beings were there to welcome me.   I was not able to see their faces, but a feeling of Unconditional Love WAS as they both put their arms around me, comforting and protecting me.  With a very loving thought they asked me if I was alright, and I replied "I don't know".  Then very slowly, they guided me away from where I landed. 

     I wanted to stay there, because the love that washed over me was so overwhelming.  My sleep was interrupted by my own thoughts thinking that I had ascended to the 5th as I briefly opened my eyes to see if I had, only to find that I was in the same familiar surroundings.  It was indeed a bummer.  I closed my eyes again hoping that I could return to that place where I wanted to stay forever...but couldn't. 

     As I laid there in bed awhile while my mind seemed to be going in so many different directions, I felt some changes happening within my body.  My heart started to palpatate and I felt a very slight pain, which only lasted a minute or so, in the right side of my chest.  The experience was so profound and definitely mind-blowing!

     Greetings To The Galactic Federation Of Light!

     First, I just want to say, the meer thought of this message reaching you is way beyond thrilling for me. 

     It's been said that it's now time for Light workers to step up to the plate, and that WE, as a collective, are very powerful, and most likely more powerful than WE can possibly imagine.  And, it's also been said that One person can make a difference, like ripples in a pond.  Well, I'm here to manifest a WAVE.  Since our governments won't welcome you, WE WILL!!!