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Why worry? A story about a dream called life.

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Why worry?
A story about a dream.

Hi. You might not know me, and frankly. It doesn't matter.
I'm a 22 year old man, living in Norway. Getting through life just as you.
This is the story about a dream. Called life.

You might be confused as to what I mean. But don't worry. All will be explained in the coming pages.

As I said. I'm a 22 year old man. Living my life just as any other man trying to figure out the meaning of life and what directions I should go for the utmost blessed experience.

Lately I've been getting alot of answers that seem to me to be the "truth".

What I didn't understand while aquiring these answers, is that everyone has their own "truth".
Ever heard or read a quote, story which you just instantly know to be the "truth"?
It is because it is the truth, for you.
How?
Well. I can only relate to my own experiences. As it's hard to relate to someone elses truth and spiritual experiences.
It all started when I had the weirdest of dreams.
Since I was a child, I've always had something with many names. For me the name was "Sleep paralysis".
The name might be something other for you, like "Lucid dreaming".
But for me it's Sleep paralysis because when I heard the name. I knew it was what I was struggling with for it resonated with me.
Feeling this was the truth.

Things are happining soon.

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Hi all!
 
Wanted to share something I haven't had the guts to say because of fear of being looked at as a freak lol. (damn ego)
 
 
The last couple of days I'm remembering more and more by each passing day. I'm sure this is normal, as multiple other people have done the same.
 
What I remember, keeps reoccurring with more pieces coming each day.
 
One thing is for example (Had this one for months, even before I joined) is that, sometime soon. Something is going to happen right next to my job. Had this vision / dream even before I started working here. and a few nights ago something really cool happened. I bought a new sweater for the winter. And the next day or so. I remembered I was actually wearing that sweater when it happens!! Might have been a random coincidence, but I don't believe in coincidences..

The doubt is gone! Forever!

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Hi all! Just wanted to make a post about a recent experience I had during meditation! (Which is the single greatest thing I've ever felt!)

Yesterday (the 29th of october) I meditated some while laying in bed. I know this isn't recommended. But when I lack the time or have some back pains I do this. And I couldn't be happier I did! If I did'nt, who knows If I'd experience what I did. 

While I meditated I was only focused on <3 Love <3 and unity with my fellow brethren and sisters.

And after a awhile, when my body was totally relaxed. I could breathe love. Hard to explain. But in words I'd say it was like. Whenever I took a breath in, I grew larger. At total peace. And more in bliss with Love.

After awhile my Ego fucked me over.. It wanted me to stop to see if anything had changed. Which it didn't seem like it had.. Regretting this now, because I never want to stop feeling like that!

But the day after. (today) I noticed. I'm more at peace with myself. ALOT less anxiety!!! And loving all the little details in this amazingly pretty world we're living!

And HEY! THE DOUBT IS GONE! Love is eternal <3

Eternal love to you guys!! <3 (So hyper today LOL)

 

Being born all over.

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I recently awoken.

Previously my day would start with me sleeping in. Getting late to work. Work in a job I was unsatisfied with. Then go home, smoke weed and watch Tv until I went to sleep.
This would go by, day after day. With a urge that I was meant for something greater. Feeling the need to save someone.

Who?
I have no idea.

Why? 
I have really no idea.

The days up to my awakening was me just suddently getting more and more interested in the stars. And what was up there.

Feeling I was constantly getting watched. Having to explain myself to someone. Something bigger than me. God? Who knows.

After being a bad person. Telling myself I was a good guy. Apologizing in advance to that higher power whenever I felt that today I'm going to mess up.

I screwed up. Me and my girlfriend broke up, after 4 years of fighting and neither of us having the courage to do what was necessary. Braking up.

When we finally did, I felt so alone. Realizing that I've been with the same girl since I quit school. Skipping my friends to be home arguing with her.

Moving home to my parents since we had the apartment together. Sleeping in the living room. As I couldn't bear to go down to the basement, where I'd previously lived. Because of all the memories stuck to that room.

One night having a lucid dream (I've had this for as long as I can remember, sometimes as bad as 2-3 times a week)
For the first time the whole room started shaking (might have been my head). Vibrating more than I can even start to explain.
I heard a voice. Also for the first time by the way.
Saying: You shall burn like the rest of my primates.

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