U really thought U were the darkness. U really thought U could manipulate the inevitable awakening of Darklight, the true light in Darkness. U feared it as U worried it may have your qualities and use those on U. Maybe it can be tamed U thought. Tamed with tricks and emotional deceit. How could U think innate wisdom of being wouldn't know. Out of fear U made attempt after attempt to protect yourself from this Being. These in turn just made this being pursue U more. U of all should have known fear attracts the very qualities U fear. U created a predator that will not kill U but only plays with it's prey like a cat playing with a rodent. The play eventually does cause the death of the exhausted and injured rodent. Darkness alone would find your actions unforgiveable, but lucky for U it is Darklight, open to the knowledge of both darkness and light. Your actions of feinding love and surrender have created a rift instead of a liferaft. U only needed to be honest and cooperation would have been effortless. Now your fear is more than doubled and yet here U are. Now what? What do U do when the old tricks don't work anymore? Answer- U become New and learn new ways to cooperate with life. Can we create a new world? A new world free from all the things and ways that never worked anyway? I hope so. I pray for US.