I have been reading the Galactic Free Press for a long time now, but only recently decided to throw my hat in the ring. Most of my life I have lived in a sort of closet. My closet had a very pretty painted door and even windows that I could see out of but it was still a closet. The name of my closet was, fear of being revealed. Like most of the people on here, all my life I have been consciously different. Whether it is through feeling or seeing or hearing it doesn't matter. The very second it appears that you understand something that you shouldn't, well then, you are different. In my case it was being psychic. I have been psychic all my life and hopefully have helped a few people on my journey. I have studied all the right books and taken the appropriate course. I understand the things I am supposed to understand, but still I could not set myself free from my closet walls, until recently. You see, for 20 years I have been carrying images of a past life. The images were powerful and filled with emotion. But I simply could not accept what I saw. I thought that the person in my head could not possibly be me. I fully believe in past lives however, when it came to me believing in my own, well that was different, and back in the closet I went. In may of this year, it all got to be too much. I was dreaming about this past life every night and the images were interrupting my days. So in an act of desperation I decided to sit down and try to write it out of me. I could not know then that 250 pages later, the story of the fall of Lemuria would lay in front of me.
The process of writing the story down, was a painful, elating, joyous torture for me. I did not write a story, I went through the experience of integration. Writing this book has pulled together two sides of my persona. I no longer dream about this life. But I am in conscious awareness of my time there. For me, it took going backwards to be able to release myself to my future. Only then was I able to come out of my closet and understand who I am now. I was able to own who I am now. Good, bad, right and wrong. The concept of a spiritual being having a human experience had new meaning. I understood that this life is but a moment in time on the thread of our own personal evolution.
I also discovered just how different our two worlds are, even though we are on the same planet. Going backwards and owning the understanding I had then, has empowered me to apply that knowledge in this timeframe. That knowledge was how we all are one. Plants, animals, rocks, humans, we all have a language and an understanding of reality, All we need to do to speak those languages, is to learn to truly listen.
Somehow for me, going backwards all owed me to become whole within myself in this time, and hopefully it allowed me to integrate in other lives as well. What we do in this life affects all our lives. Understanding how this works can allow us all to ascend in a single life time. We can align all of our lives from a single life if we allow ourselves to.
That is my story, and I would encourage anyone else living in a closet like mine to crack the door open a little and see what is there waiting for you, wanting to help you open the door fully. For me, the risk of being revealed was worth it.
