My First Vision?

I am not one who readily blogs my every move, feeling, or thought, however, this is an experience I would like to share.  Whether it is true or not, maybe someone could give me some feedback, as I do not want to "fool myself" into a flight of fancy.  

I have always "known" things in my life.  Until recently, I didn't know there was a term for this...clairecognizant.  I am also empathic...I feel others feelings, which can be very draining on me at times, if it's a negative feeling.  I pondered this morning whether to share this here or on facebook, I choose here, as I am surrounded by "like-minded" enlightened friends.  =]

Now I digress...many years ago I had the experience of Rolfing.  This is a deep massage technic, which releases tensions and blockages in the body.  It is very painful!   In one of those sessions, he said to me, you choose not to see.  I looked at him perplexed, "what do you mean?"  He said, " You wear glasses because you choose not to see."  I was like, "ok"...but inside I really didn't understand at that time.  He had me practice really "using my eyes" by not wearing my glasses.  Good thing I didn't get into an accident!  I wasn't ready, nor did I "see" the full context of what he was truly saying to me.  Thing were all blurry. Which is how my life was, at that time.  I had a lot to work out within myself.  

Since March 23 of this year, the day of my breast lumpectomy, things changed.  My "lighbulb turned on", I lost my fear of death that day, "knowing" everything was going to be ok...no matter what.  and I have been putting my conscious intent and whole being into focus of going within to evolve into my higher consciousness.  This is also when I found the GFP on facebook and here.  I didn't join for a while, just was checking it out, since I knew I needed some guidance.  This group has brought me to a new understanding of my "mission", and has given me love.♥  You all have reminded me of some things that I learned and had forgotten back in the 80s.  Thank you for this gift! =] 

Now on to last night.  I laid down in bed last night and was watching TV as I always do before I sleep, to help drown out the outside noises.  It's an old habit that I acquired in Miami, since all night the ambulances fly by, which is disturbing to me to hear.  I usually put on something that will bore me enough to fall asleep. Last night as I closed my eyes, something happened.  I saw a deep blue color, with all these bubbles forming.  Then all of a sudden I saw a plane in the clouds. It was a commercial plane flying, but it was aimed downward.  I knew I wasn't dreaming or sleeping, because i could hear the TV and I thought, "that's not what they are talking about on TV!"  Then I rememberd my eyes are closed!  It was like I was watching TV, but my eyes were closed.  So then when I realized I had a vision, I closed my eyes again and "tried".  Nothing..that is..until I relaxed my mind.  It happened again, I first saw a deep blue with bubbles swirling, then I saw another thing, people running from something, on the left I saw smoke and flames.  It was a city.  Again, it was like a TV screen picture.  All the while I could hear the TV, and this did not coinside with what was on the TV itself.  

Now, I cannot say for certain if what I "saw" is real or not.  It just happened.  I saw this with my eyes closed, in perfect color.  I was not dreaming nor sleeping, as I was fully conscious.  All I can say is this...I am choosing "to see".  My only thought is I wish it was something more pleasureable!  I have to say, I am good at "visualizing" when I read books I get "lost" and visualize what it is I am reading.  This vision was not pre-thought, nor anything I can relate it to other than seeing it.  I don't know if it was the plane that crashed in the city that I saw, when I saw the people running away.  I just saw smoke and people running.  Either way, I wanted to share this, because for me this is a revelation even just for "seeing".  Hope ya'll get what I am trying to say!