Should I Stay or Should I Go?

Deborah Taylor's picture

 

 
 
I think that I may be dying but I’m not sure if it’s a metaphysical death or if I am getting glimpses of an impending physical death.  I know that I am ascending.  The “talk” is becoming the “walk”.  Something is truly happening beyond imagination and theorizing.  For instance, a couple of hours this morning I walked through life as if I was alive but keenly aware that on another level, I might have died and simply not been aware of my departure.  It was THAT unusual and intriguing.
 
  It’s hard to explain fully but I feel as if I am walking between two worlds that are bleeding into each other.  I am becoming more acquainted with a “shadow” reality that is running parallel to my 3D reality but is broader in feel, depth and width of emotion.  I am slowly slipping into a comfortable space that is lighter in feel and unlimited in quality.  Though I am still here on earth, I am beginning to understand and feel the possibility of living on a different frequency, a different vibration.  The feeling is palpable. 
 
I can sense the dimensionality and the layered existences that are available to me as I shift my attention from the predictable to the transformational.  As this happens more and more, I will try and write and document the events more specifically.  When I am in my new space, all the brilliant understanding and the words to describe what I am feeling are within my reach but when I cog back into 3D, the feelings recede and become harder to describe.  My intuition tells me that I could very easily find myself “gone” from here but I am not sure how that would manifest ... Would I physically die? ... Would I be able to communicate with others around me and if so, would it be verbal or through thought/telepathy? ... Would my body still be found in this 3D vibration or will I be vibrating on another level and not be seen by others, in which case, where would my body go?
 
  I know that there are a plethora of “explanations” going around as to what may happen or how ascension will play out, but ya know what?  No one really knows and each person will go through the process in a different way, so I don’t want to influence my interpretations by reading someone else's instruction book on ascension.  There are some that are here that have no desire, awareness or life plan to ascend, so their experience will be vastly different than mine.  I know that I am rapidly awakening now and open myself up to my own personal expression.  I was born with this fire in my belly.  It’s why I am here.  I find myself in a space of completion, as if I am the lock and the key at the same time and have lovingly turned the handle and found the doors of perception open and alive with life.  Without a doubt, this “place” is where I am meant to be.  It’s hard to describe and will sound “crazy” to some, but this has been my experience.  Toujours plus haut!

 

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should i stay or should i go

astreia's picture

What a lovely message! This is very helpful to me personally. I just want to thank you for posting it.

 

Blessings,

 

Astreia

thank you for this unique and refreshing post

heather walden's picture

Deborah,

 

In this unique phase, it is all inspiring to hear of another soul who is having common circumtances. Stay or Go? That's been on my mind for some time but indeed it seems we are moving, ascending, changing, etc. All of my life I have felt like an alien on this planet, even in adulthood, and perhaps most of me wishes to go home. This is the first of your posts I have read and look forward to hearing more. I am hoping for things to move forward at a fast pace now. Thank you and nice to meet you.

 

Heather

Dear brothers and

lightgirl's picture

Dear brothers and sisters,

 

 

Yes, I too have never felt that I belong here.....I have always had the inner quest to find and be apart of something greater than myself to truly help people, use my skills, but all of us working together at our talents and all contribute to the whole.  I feel that I'm changing, but yesterday and today I had alot of frustration with my sister and difficult circumstances to know how to deal with.  Love doesn't mean caving to others just to "make peace", love has boundaries, but I'm not quitting, I have a warrior inside of me that will keep going till the end.

 

It's a bit awkward, trying to connect with my guides, have a sense of one by me but I'm trying to constantly remember the greater truth when faced with everyday life!

 

So, here we are....helping each other along the way just by vocalizing our struggles and thoughts!

 

Thanks to you all,

 

L

Thank you all for your

Deborah Taylor's picture

Thank you all for your thoughts and replies.  When I think that nothing has changed, I have to think again.  It wasn't so long ago that we couldn't get together at this level of understanding and share all of what we feel and how we interpret ourselves and our surroundings without being thought of as "weird".  We can all now express the wild and the wonderful sides of ourselves and be honored for the amazing humans that we are.  Little by little ... we're getting there!  xo Deb