Thank You.

at the absolute core of being, the experience is that which can only
be pointed at, the ineffable, the indescribable, the unfathomable
that infact is fathomed, but only through being present within.
it is that which is experienced by every cell, it is that which gives
birth to all experience. when you are told that its joy,bliss,peace,
love, even truth, again thats the game. even saying its the truth
is just another pointer, as lao tzu said, the true tao is the tao
that cannot be spoken. yet even he went on to write a book about it
as has a lot of other beings done the same.

we write or dont write and so on, because it heals, and the point
of all experience, is to heal. im writing this, because i remembered
that in one message , i wrote about the inner experience of being
and i said " its joy, peace, bliss, and so on" wehre as the so on
part points at all this that ive just typed up. but i desired to
make it clear what exactly the contradictions and "so on" were
pointing at. im doing this because i love myself and you all.
this also backs up others whom have spoken about the experience
as well. it also contradicts previous messages about the experience
of being, so as to you not to follow at all. but to be brave
and walk your path WITH everyone.

this isnt to say that you cant walk behind someone, or follow their
lead through the woods, but eventually you will notice that you
dont desire to walk the same path as them because youve found a higher
path to take. beings like myself, and by like i mean those who are
also enlightened, are attractive to those who are on the path of
seeking enlightenment/liberation, because weve been given the gift
of becoming enlightened before them, we have let ourselves go
to the core, and we turn around, and go against the old ways
with all that we are. this is attractive because you yourself
have officially grown sick and tired of being sick and tired
of the experience of identifying with your egomind, identifying
with the conditioning that gets passed around. that isnt saying
that we, and you dont use the conditioning /the egomind to
further understand ourselves, i mean all that is taking place
throughout all creation is taking place for a reason, and none
of it goes to waste at all. trying to rid yourself of the ego
is like trying to keep it all positive, and rid yourself
of all thats negative at the same time, its just silly, and
its from identifying with the ego, that you even consider trying
to get rid of the ego all at once, and try to even keep it all
positive and so on, again its just silly.

another bit id like to point out is the universal mirror.
if any of you have ever listened to alan watts' audiotalk
calling " out of your mind" youll hear him address what was just
spoken about, the game of being egoless, and the universal mirror
to touch base on that for a bit. the universal mirror is that
which reflects back to you, all your inner psychological misunderstandings
for you see and thus go through. those who do not see this universal
mirror, are the ones you can hear talking about how animals dont have
rights, how nature is fucked up, how were all fucked, how were
not cared about, how some beings are worthless, how they only believet this
but dont believe that, how being gay is okay, but going against being gay
isnt tolerated, how having marijuana illegal is good, yet having alcohol
legal is also good, yet missing the point that the cia , are the planets
drug runners, having marijuana illegal is entrapment, and alcohol kills
lots of beings every year, just as cigarettes and other illegal substances can
except marijuana can thrust you into a panic or anxiety attack, but thus far
is not known to kill anyone at all even at very high doses.

not to go off on a tangent, but i feel that  giving as many examples of sillyness
as i can, is helpful, since it helps me. but again, the universal mirror
is that which reflects all that you are, back to you, and when you see yourself as you
are, its more like you are able to see others as they are, in all their glory
because you see yourself in all your glory, this doesnt mean you wont have
delusion, or misunderstandings to continue to go through, quite the opposite
it just means that you can see yourself from the view of an observer where you
have a unique perspective of reality, and it gets better and better as you go
because youre going through all your misunderstandings, simultaneously as you
have within you from this process, solidified understandings by going through
your misunderstandings. in this the mirror gets clearer on one side, while on the
other side, its totally clear from the solidified understandings.


id also like to point out that during these changing times, we can find ourselves
playing the game of good and bad. by putting out truth, and untruth. and id also
like to point out the confuscianism part of this, is that throughout all creation
there is only truth, even when its called untruth, because it takes that untruth
for the truth to even be what it is, in this id like to point out the tao te chings
understandings through the fact that it takes beauty for there to be ugliness.
the disinformation is there to get you to stop following others , to take your focus
off solely just the words themselves , and to take a step backwards , and notice
how you feel both within and on you, as you read both the words, and the energy contained
within and around them, including your own words and text/writings, audio and all life.
that isnt to say your focus wont be on the words again, because they will be,but your
attention will also be on the feelings you have too. along with all other experience as well.
for some , theyre easily distracted , but this will change, my advice with disstractions
is to look at them as they are, not to avoid them at all, because you will become just that
distracted, and then be a distraction for others, but thats not a bad thing , because
it takes the distraction being there, for you to understand what its like to not be
distracted at all. equal and opposites needing each other, polarity consciousness to
unity consciousness. being a distraction yourself is the same as having others around
you who are in a trance and dont realize it until afterwards, just like being deluded.

thats not to say you yourself arent aware of some delusions, but other ones you arent
and for those who are further along in understandings than i am, know what im talking about.
youre aware of all these delusions, but there are other delusions there that come out as you go
and then they become more common, or known to you as you go as well.im also going to point out
that delusion of having to eat only organic food at all times in order to maintain a higher
vibrating state of awareness. you can eat mcdonalds, and drink flouridated water, ramen noodles
with canned veggies that tastes like aluminum and processed foods that has residue of matter
that youd rather not eat, and still be in a higher vibration. that isnt saying that you want to
but if you dont have any other choice right now , then be all means, dont worry about it.
its like that so that you are eventually motivated towards pursuing being able to afford
eating great food all the time, and so on with all the physical manifest realm has to offer.
id also like to point out the sillyness of both girls and boys living with being obese.
i see this as a way of testing others in just how loving they are, all a while desiring someone
less than heavy or as heavy or heavier than you are. its just silly, and grosse. there are
better ways to test how loving beings are, and less expensive too. i can understand having
genetic issues within you (thyroid problems) which cause you to gain or keep weight on,
even if you eat very little all the time. that too can be fixed through surgery. but like the
junkies who take methadone and feed their thoughtforms through their identification with their
ego, that theyre clean when theyre not at all, those beings whom overeat to test beings into
loving them as they are, get bent out of shape when you approach them like a military drill
seargant telling them that they need to pull their head out of their ass and grow the fuck up,
along with those other junkies who use other chemicals, to get away from their inner issues
is what it ultimately stems from, through fear and pain of course, and also to test others.

ive covered this before, but not with the same understanding. these beings testing those who
are awake or enlightened, are doing so because of their identification with the ego and the
thought of experiencing a lack of love , or no love at all. so theyre going to get bent
out of shape when we speak out in regards to them, how can you say this, how can you do that
and so on. they dont yet fully understand love as it is. i can go on and on but ill end it here.

love,
hilarion.