As Exerienced and written by Pamela A. Hamilton
Sunday – October 7, 2012
I was a bit reluctant to open the messages for this week’s rites. I was apprehensive about what I would find. I felt that what I had learned the previous week was so intense that I wondered if I were ready to learn something new. However, when I listened to the Mp3 message, the music and chants resonated so strongly with me that I was greatly receptive to the message.
Monday – October 8, 2012
I woke up with the following on my mind: Is this group consciousness the home I’ve been looking for? Is this where I want to plant my feet and serve my devotion? I think I’ve already made that choice. Yes.
I find this week’s message to be highly challenging so I’ve made some notes.
The needs of the whole outweigh the needs of the one.
Thinking of myself as receptive instead of resistant.
I have a function in the group – the group represents the conscious and integral custodians of the Divine Plan.
Assisting with revealing Divine Goodwill upon the earth (God’s Plan – My Plan, as I am God) is far more important than my individualized desires, pains or pleasures, etc.
An “alchemical reaction of unity and synthesis within our entire energy field.
1. Perceiving beyond the form
2. Transcending the sensory mind
3. Transcending dual perception
4. Transcending concepts of belief
Perceiving beyond form – People, concepts, physical manifestation…these are all seen and directly experienced as expressions of energy, individualized units of the greater whole.
In this Rite, our awareness expands into the ‘formless,’ the field of pure potentiality from where all creations spring forth. From this greater alignment, we are able to apply timeless wisdom to the form in which to alchemize a permanent shift.
See beyond judgments, concepts physical manifestations, belief systems. These are just manifested forms of potentiality which were originally formless; therefore, they can be reshaped / reformed into the Divine Plan of Goodwill.
I’m not alone. My strength is the strength of the group and that of my Ascended Master Guides and that of Sunat Kumara and my angel and Archangels. They are helping me to evolve because I am a part of them.
Everything = concepts, opinions, philosophies about life, people, physical manifestations, etc.
The Divine Consciousness is the Divine hidden. Seek out the divine hidden in everything. You are looking for the Soul, the Christ Principle (the unifying Universal consciousness present in every particle of creation), the oneness which is love and has no opposite, and therefore, is formless – full of potential Goodwill for the Good of All.
Focus thought of the Divine at the forefront of our consciousness at all times. Integrate the divine thought and feeling into every aspect of our life. Maintain this in every interaction and experience.
Group consciousness directs us toward the highest good of all.
Flames help to see the hidden, revealing perfection / Goodwill. Invoking and evoking the flames makes this revelation spontaneous. I can graduate from my long meditations by invoking and evoking the flames with all of my actions and reactions.
Our five senses connect us to matter which is separated into form
Our Divine Consciousness / the Soul connects all matter
Because I have five senses, I am still connected to matter. By invoking and evoking the flames, I can encourage matter to reveal its highest potential of Goodwill. Oneness will ensure that this is done for the goodness of all.
Looking for perfection, Goodwill, and the best in everything is awesome!
Tuesday – October 9, 2012
The Christ Principle is the Life Force in every particle. It is the consciousness of the Life Force. The consciousness is Divine Goodwill. This is the Oneness. It is in everything. This is the Truth hidden behind all illusion. This is the Truth that the violet flame reveals in all situations whether we are attracted or repulsed by the circumstances. When we no longer judge circumstances by whether we are repulsed or attracted to them, truth – Divine Truth – is automatically revealed. Divine Alignment takes place.
The Christ Principle is Love and Goodwill. It exists in every particle, thought, feeling, and action. The Christ Principle is perfection in everything that exists.
Look for the perfection. The beauty of it (sacred geometry) may be enough to see. Look for the perfection, particle by particle. Call it forward. Use the flames to purge away the illusions. Watch in amazement as Divine Perfection (Alignment or even sacred geometry) reveals itself. All is perfect and Divine.
At the particle level all is formless with pure potentiality toward Divine Love and Goodwill.
Perfect alignment takes place without my need to control it.
“One of our greatest services to the Divine Plan is to simply be a bright beacon and neutralizing pillar while selflessly invoking Divinity…to be in this world, but not of it. While walking the path of equanimity, we come to master the Law of Duality, rising above the pull of matter, in full acceptance of the divinity inherent in all things.
Transcending Concepts and Beliefs –
These are macroscopic perspectives, which at this time are too difficult for me to integrate. I want to focus more on the microscopic level of Christ Consciousness in particles.
Instead of looking outward first to see the particles of perfection, I should look inward so that it is my vision that changes. Following is an invocation that came to me.
“I am calling on every particle, thought, feeling, and action inside of me to reveal its Divine Perfection, Divine Love, Divine Goodwill to me. Great Sacred Fire Love blaze your colors. Show me the perfect alignment for my highest good and the highest good for all. I release all expectations.”
Use the violet flame to burn away my ego. Allow the color of the flame to burn away my ego. Allow the color of the flame and its sacred geometry to reveal themselves in the particles I seek. Feel the glow, beauty, and bliss manifested deep inside of myself.
Wednesday – October 10, 2012
I dreamed that I was in a Light Palace. It was full of beings of light floating in different geometric shapes. I believe I was there to receive instructions because the scene suddenly shifted to a street that appeared to be outside of our local Louisiana state building. The street was deserted except for a very governmental – official looking guy and me.
Here in the South, tradition to smile and say “hello” to anyone you pass by so I did. He waved his greeting, but slowed down. I turned around and saw that he had turned around too. He waved again, but it looked like a Masonic wave so I repeated his wave back to him, but projected light energy with it. I thought he was kidding. He continued doing this, but with more intricate gestures. I continued repeating him, but noticed that I required more and more light to complete my projections. I began to realize that I was in a battle. I also realized that I was very well equipped for the task.
I stopped playing with the man and began to send him more intense light projections. Our eyes locked; we circled each other and moved closer and closer. We were close enough to touch one another’s faces. He tried to lock his hands on my face, but I locked my hand on his face and stuck my finger on his third eye. It sank straight through to his pineal gland. I flooded his being with light. When I extracted my finger, he collapsed on the ground. I walked away.
Another government official type came up to me. I flooded him with light easily. A group of workers came toward me. One person stopped to talk to me while the others went to help the fallen officials who were regaining consciousness. I moved to flood them with light again, but the worker who had stopped in front of me explained that the officials were now in containment and would be rehabilitated. I accepted his statement with ease.
Next, I found myself in the halls of a government building that felt like the Louisiana state capitol. I was talking to people who had worked there for decades as janitors and doormen.
Suddenly, I found myself in my niece’s apartment. I was in a more awakened dream state. The doors to her apartment were unlocked and opened. I knew she was ill with the flu so she was most probably sleeping. I closed and locked her doors for her. I felt fear. I had just come from battle without fear, but, more awakened, I felt fear in my niece’s apartment.
I cleansed my chakras to remove the energy of the battle like a warrior cleaning his sword. I woke up in utter awe, acknowledging that, on some level, this battle did take place.
I woke up expecting to have a high energy day. My niece’s two toddlers had spent the night and would probably stay most of the day due their mother’s illness of the flu. I did not want to spend my day caring for them. I wanted to study and incorporate my new findings for this week’s rite of passage.
I realized early upon rising that the incorporation of my findings would be a practicum. I would be learning, in the field so to speak, how to call upon the consciousness of the particles around me for perfect alignment. I expected to receive high energy from these calls as I did from tests performed the days before. This did not happen.
I struggled with making the calls. My ego wanted to spend the day in resentment and anger, but I made the calls instead – the violet and emerald flames. There were no other members of the family to care for those beautiful children. Seems the flu was affecting almost everyone. There was no one to blame for this situation. I was just in it.
I did not feel my usual anxiety for being tossed into a situation from which I believed I could not escape. I was too busy calling on the flames. I kept asking my guides why I didn’t feel my energy. Why didn’t I feel loving and soft? I could hear myself speaking to everyone as if I were issuing orders, but remembering to say “please” and “thank you.”
At the end of the day, my guides responded. It went something like this, “You expect too much when you should have no expectations at all. Your work was with your ego – to learn to be present in the ‘now’. You successfully addressed this. You are doing well. There is no need to try to learn everything at once. Give yourself time to incorporate your lessons.”
I had begun, last week, to realize that the schedule I had set for myself for invocations and decrees was too heavy and burdensome. This week, that schedule was shattered as if I was being told, “you asked the flames and angels for their help, but you’re not letting them work. Because of your request for intervention, we are helping you to move out of your own way.”
The day was not a total struggle. There were rewards: waking up and having my 3-year-old nephew ask if I were happy instead of his saying the usual greeting of “good morning”; often, the kids wanted hugs and kisses or just some lap time – curling up on my lap for coddling; there were moments of just recognizing the light in them; I got to see the kids practice the courtesies that the family has been teaching them; spontaneously, I cooked several dishes for them and myself, something that I had wanted to do but had convinced myself that my studies and invocations were more important; having my niece, who was one day away from her third birthday, tell me “thank you” for braiding her hair into cornrows which was really funny considering that it took four adults to get her to cooperate, including one of whom who looked as if she had been thrown into the bath water she had prepared for my niece; and, finally, the kids were going to their grandmother’s the next day.
It seems that I have been placed on a journey to learn balance between study and service.
Thursday – October 11, 2012
When the kids left, I was elated. I had gone through the entire experience without resenting their presence. I did not feel that my time had been stolen from me by God, placing me in a circumstance beyond my control. I did not resent a “perceived” lack of control. I concentrated on acknowledging the Christ particles in everything around me. My mood remained stable, pretty much. I felt the high I had expected to feel.
I noticed, however, that this “surrender” to the Christ Principle was limited to my feelings about having to babysit – a situation I did not consciously choose – a situation in which I felt I had no other reasonable choice.
I felt better calling on the Light today than yesterday. I was much more relaxed about invoking the light. I didn’t feel as if I were being drained. Instead, I invoked the flames while using a different perspective. Instead of invoking the flames to change the world outside of me, I invoked the flames to change what I saw. I asked all of the particles inside of me and around me to reveal their highest Christ Potential and I asked to be able to see it. Instead of calling on the violet flame to clear away my perceived lower energy, I called upon the rose pink flame to project the love in all, everywhere.
I found myself playing with the children. We played chase. We tossed and kicked a ball around. We used a toy microphone to amplify silly sounds…I followed my nephew’s lead. I had a more fun-filled and loving day than I could have imagined. Also, I made some very good jokes…worthy of the writer I always thought I would become…if I don’t say so myself.
It seems that I am developing a vision of myself as an entertainer – someone who tells stories, acts in plays, sings, and plays the guitar and piano. I see myself doing these things in small, intimate circles throughout the community—not as a celebrity, but as someone who does this for the pure joy of it.
I would like to call on the Christ energy at all times in all circumstances, not just when I feel that I am in forced circumstances like babysitting. I have a list of things that I would like to do, skills I would like to develop, but have been unable to commit doing so. I WANT TO HAVE FUN!!! If I am to be of service with goodwill to others, then why not this service? I’ve held myself back never being able to figure out why.
Friday – October 12, 2012
I’ve been asked by a community organization to develop a weekly story time for children. Again, I felt a slight intrusion upon my time. (Where does this come from? My mother. You stick one toe in with good intentions and you’re sucked into the quicksand of manipulations based upon helplessness.) However, what I felt more so, was an opportunity to fulfill some of my desires while purging my fears and insecurities.
This is a voluntary situation, not a forced one. I have to come out of hiding. No more hiding in meditation or the Crystalline Grid or Star Trek: Voyager or sweet, quiet softness, or any of those other places I like to check into like they’re hotels. I have avoided working with others because I could not ensure control of the situation. Also, I did not want to be manipulated, nor did I want to manipulate anyone else.
Working with the flames and the Christ energy ensures and assures me that the best circumstances for everyone and everything will always emerge, freeing me of the need to control or manipulate. I can trust Divine perfect alignment. Now, I guess what I’m asking for…and I grit my teeth in recognition of the gravity of what I seek…is the practicum for the lesson. It is all around me with every breath I take and every use of my five senses – to see beyond and find the hidden. It’s already happening.
I had been out running errands on the bus. I don’t like being out in public these days -- too much evidence of the dark cabal. I called on all particles to reveal their divine perfection. This must have shielded me from my normal discomforts. I didn’t feel any fun or elation, but I think developing these feelings is just a matter of cultivation. I just have to keep calling.
Saturday – October 13, 2012
I’ve always blamed my inability to commit to the things that I want do or have on God not wanting me to have it or my mother. Now, I know that God is inside of me and that I’ve been sustaining my lower vibrational perceptions of my mother by not recognizing God in both of us. This recognition has cleared up a great many of my vulnerabilities. It has cleared the way for me to see that I like structure and discipline. What’s funny about this is that I’ve always thought of myself as running away from these things because they seemed to be based upon force and manipulation. Yet, the structure and discipline of the Rites of Passage, along with the non-invasive approach was exactly what I was looking for.
During my meditation last night, I felt a poignant desire for self-discipline—a call for completing unfinished projects. I dreamed of a succession of characters (celebrities) asking me to wake up, asking me why I wasn’t doing more. It’s going to be very interesting to see where all of this leads.
Summary –
I’m becoming more social, less afraid of being around others, and more comfortable calling forth the Christ Principle in every particle within myself first, and, then all particles all around me. Calling on these particles in relation to the Sacred flames helps me to feel as if I’m coming into my wholeness. Instead of acting based upon false securities resting on a foundation of false premises, I feel that my foundation is balancing, but I feel weaker, more vulnerable, like a baby standing on unstable legs. It’s okay, though. I know I’ll get my walking feet under me.
