by Caroline Aguiar
I’ve worked hard at transparency lately, and I’m finding within my personal life, this is working well, although when it comes to my great desire to “communicate” with others, I find I still struggle in this area because it may sound egotistcal to some.
Perhaps this stems from my self-doubt (disbelieve) as to the truth of what has occured in my life, just within this past year. Maybe I’m not the only one who’s saying, “Hey,wait a minute, what’s up with that?”
My deepening urge to communicate with others is rapidly growing. This is something I can’t explain, it just is. Perhaps this is why I’m writing more. The urge comes from deep within, and it’s a sincere heartfelt desire to be of service to others. This is the only way I know how to do it, because I have no special classes under my belt, nor am I a spiritual teacher of any sort, although I have been a diligent student of spirit all my life.
In a recent reading with Archangel Michael, and Linda Dillon, he told me not to doubt my abilities as a communicator. He reminded me of the importance in strengthening my foundation through further education, and knowledge. I found the communicator part hard to believe, due to my belief of “not being good enough”, but since then, a lot has changed, and I’ve received enormous help in resolving this issue, and regarding further education, I’m all for it!
If you look down at the bottom of this page to the section that says, “My Hearts Desire in Service to Others” I express what calls to me, in service to others. Perhaps this specific practice is not for me, maybe something else will show itself, but the intention is out there, so we’ll have to wait and see what transpires. Right now, I have my eyes set on some Theta Healing classes which will be held in March, and I hope to be there. Archangel Michael encourages us to dream big,and that’s exactly what I intend to do.
In all sincerity, the purpose of this blog is to motivate, inspire, and if possible, bring forth further understanding about what is occurring during these rapidly changing times, and let’s not forget, transparency! If for any reason, the following does not resonate with you, I absolutely understand, and by all means, click on delete if you feel you need too.
As I said before, after many months of not channeling, I’ve started to receive messages again, in the way of pep-talks, which have truly inspired me. They have given me strength to keep going, not only in everyday life, but in the pursuit of further education, and hopefully understanding about the course of events which are playing out now within our world, and our personal lives.
Yesterday, another pep-talk cameto me, in the same way it did before. It was quite unexpected when I felt another wave of love swell up within my heart chakra, and again I felt “called” to drop what I was doing, grab my note-book, pen in hand, and wait.
This time, it was about 2:30 in the afternoon, as I lay on my bed trying to rest before I had to go to work. I kept looking at the clock; 15 more minutes, 10 more minutes and so on, until suddenly I heard a deep voice come into my consciousness. Immediately, I sat up in bed, and said aloud in a firm voice, ” I affirm that absolutely only beings of the highest, purest Christed Consciousness and intent are to be with me, and surround me at all times, and at times of channeling” (Thank you, Wes!)
The loving energy I felt, and the voice did not go away. What proceeded next was another pep talk, and again, love swelled wihin my heart. I think perhaps these pep talks are helping me to overcome my uncertainty whether or not I should keep channeling. This has been a big question for me, and I have asked for guidance on this very subject. My urge to communicate is growing stronger, which may be why I’m writing more. I admit, there is still a smidgen of fear, but during these pep-talks, all I feel is love, and each time, my fear diminishes, a little more.
My main fear centers around the ability to feel certain energies, such as Earthbound Spirits, and this is unnerving because I can’t see them, nor do I know what their intentions are. My friend, teacher, and Shamanic Healer, who also has a Docotrite in Chinesse medicine, Dr. Janice B, has said they’re not out to get us. They are people just like the rest of us, and most of them, although attracted to our energy fields, are not necessarily interested in of our lives, neither are they aware of the closeness to our energy fields, as they are still caught up in their own lives (which is another topic altogther) This makes perfect sense, but when you feel them close, it’s still takes some getting used too.
The release of what no longer works for us, is vital at this time, and I understand exactly what I need to release. That, and the practice of transparency are on my to do list. One thing is for certain, these pep-talks I’m receiving have left me feeling cleansed, happy, and incredibly joyful. The great fear I felt, is slowly diminishing, and I am eternally grateful for that. As I write this, my heart is bursting because I feel the closeness of something so beautiful, so loving, and it brings tears to my eyes again. Lots of crying these days, but with tears of love, and joy.
This morning again, as I sat in bed drinking my morning coffee, I felt a great deal of love, as it swelled within my heart chakra, urging me to go within. I lit a candle on my Earth altar, breathed, and allowed myself slowly to sink into the depths of my heart.
As I did this my body started to hum. A gentle vibration, and then my own blasted fears crept up on me again, and in my strongest voice, I repeated the affirmation Wes mentioned in his interview, and those feelings of love returned as I sat in the chair beside my Earth Altar, and breathed…… It didn’t take long before I was once again upon a scene, to which I had witnessed twice before during the past week and a half, and I’d like to share it here with you.
A Celebration of Love
I’m sitting within a great hall. It’s one with tall, white marbled pillars. The floor is of white marble, and bright candelabras hang from the ceiling, illuminating the great hall in a warm, cozy light. My eyes shift across the room to the large windows where I see thousands of brilliant stars, and what seemed to me, as planets suspended in the darkness of space. Peace, and a feeling of “home” settled within me.
Within the hall, there are many people of all races, and by races, I got the impression they were intergalactic races, as I observed their physical features, which were somewhat different from humans, although some were indeed human, while others were not.
My power animal, and I milled about the room, as we quietly observed what appeared to be a great party. Many people passed us by as we made our way through the crowd. Everyone smiled warmly, others greeted us cheerfully, some with raised glasses, as they bid us a joyful welcome. The entire room was buzzing with festive celebration, and I wondered, what were they celebrating? There was dancing, laughter, music, with various groups of people, all dressed in bright colors, and who were obviously enthralled in joyous conversation.
I also saw people I presently knew in this lifetime, or those who I’ve known earlier on. Whether we knew each other or not, we hugged like family, and old friends. Never did we express bewilderment at being in the great hall. Where we were, seemed perfectly normal, and it was as if we had all been there before.
I saw my Dad who passed away in 2007, and as soon as I saw him I started to cry with joy. I gave him a big hug, and told him how much I loved him. The tears where still flowing when a young man approached me, and he said with a warm smile.
“Welcome Caroline, are you enjoying the party? I wasn’t sure who he was but I gathered he was a person in charge. I didn’t dare ask, but he was dressed all in blue. I could only guess at the truth of his identity.
Much to my surprise, my beloved dog Brandy, who died this past March, was also with me. She jumped up on him to say hello, her tail wagging furiously, it appeared as if she had known him for some time. The young man gave her a friendly pat on her head, and expressed his great pleasure in seeing her there.
He then motioned for me to sit down at one of the nearby tables. “Do you have your notebook ready? I looked down at my hands, and there, in my lap was my notebook. How did it get there? I wondered. Still in somewhat of a daze,and rather automatically, I answered yes, and held it up for him to see. He smiled again, and told me to wait there at the table. He would be right back.
It didn’t take long before he returned with another young gentleman, but this person was dressed in a military type uniform. The man dressed in blue told me he would like to present me to my first interviewee. He is a member of the Guardians of Light, and he has much to say to you. Are you ready to write? I couldn’t find the words to speak, it all seemed so surreal. I managed to nod my head yes, and proceeded to open my book to a clean page.
The Message which follows, you can read in Part two, “A Great Celebration of Love” I urge you to use your discernment, and if you feel inspired to read on, then please do so, and I thank you. If not, you know where the delete button is. :)
With Love,
Caroline
