Heart in a water puddle on my counter, reminding me that I am loved.
Whew, these energies have been intense. Yesterday, the last day of July found me hitting the wall. The bandages on my face, the trees around, the heat, everything conspired to make me feel trapped. I felt so tightly squeezed, tapped out. Nothing left to give. I spoke with a friend and let the tears fall. I am tired. So tired of holding this frequency, this note of mine.
The trust in the bigger picture is always with me, yet the fatigue of this journey has me worn out. I would like to feel some energy animate my body, feel enthused about something, anything! Feel some juice flowing. It happens in conversations with friends, where we share this space of no space. We weave light strands and create, though no form as yet. Still, it provides a breathing space. Thank God for each other!
I titled this a couple of weeks ago. Time is surely shifting and disappearing on us. As we knew it would. Two weeks ago, I felt weighed down with intense emotions, each day amped up another notch. It did feel as if I was hanging upside down and being shaken from my very root. I cannot recall any specifics now, only a general feeling. That is the way of it. We no longer need to hold on to anything. The waves flow through and we allow them free movement. At times, that can feel joy filled, at other times, it is almost unbearable.
What I know to be true, is that everything happening now is purposeful. That it is all returning us to unity. That love is flowing like never before and all is well. That knowing does not desert me, even in times of pain. I am grateful for having surrendered control of my being over to Sophia, my higher, no, my true self....there is no longer a need for the old way of ordering it. Nor is there a need for different names yet Sophia flows sweetly off my tongue.
