My First Awakening – by Paul

GFP Note - I would like to thank Paul for sharing this beautiful story with us. Thank you, Brother!

My first Awakening happened when I was 19 years old.

I had been partying all day – drinking, smoking, popping pills - but what I had really done was overdosed. I took seventeen 80mg oxycontin, twenty-five 5mg oxycodone, drank three 32oz Bud Lights, smoked $100 worth of weed, and a puddle of meth. I was with a friend in his car. I was not trying to overdose - I was trying to reach the biggest high I could but instead I died. When I was falling asleep I told my friend that I loved him but I passed out before I could say I was sorry.

I fell asleep and died but I did not see no light or anything like that. When I was dead I was lying on a bed of water – river, lake, sea - I really don’t know but I was on water, floating there looking at the sky. It was nighttime - I could see every star in the sky, even more stars then you can see on a clear night. The water was not cold; it was just right - not too hot or too cold, just perfect. Just then I could hear a woman/girl’s voice - it sounded so peaceful; so beautiful.

I heard her say, “It’s okay, it’s okay. You can rest now. Come to me.”

I felt so good - the best high you could ever feel times 1000 and more. I felt awesome as I was sinking deeper and deeper. I was truly happy and I felt great but something was bothering me. I knew there was more to this world - more to everything. I knew then I could not die - I had to finish my contract.

At the same time as realizing this, my friend filled up a needle with crystal meth and shot it into my arm. It made the water in this beautiful place turn ice cold and I saw a hand and arm burst through the water - grabbing me and pulling me up out of it. I could hear a voice yelling, “It’s not over yet so wake up!”

And I did. I woke up covered in sweat, sitting in the back of my friend’s car. The voice I heard – I don’t know if it was my voice or my friend’s or even someone else’s or even something else’s voice but I do know then and now that there is so much more to us - more than a 9-to-5 job and the routine of getting up, working, sleeping, paying, and then dying. I know we are meant for greater things.

Back then I did not have a grasp on what was really going on. I learned so much more after meeting Jonte, then MotherGod and FatherGod plus Rain, Ian, Erika - the list goes on. Our Family is the most beautiful Family out there. There’s so many of us - full of Love, Laughs, Light and so much more. All I can really say is - Please open your minds. At least listen and see how it feels to you on your very own Awakening.

I Love my Family and I Love all of you, too.

Lots of Love and Light.     
~ The Awesome Paul :)