Each human being is a longing of existence. You should be grateful to existence. And you should remember that to have love you will have to drop many things - you will have to drop jealousy, you will have to drop possessiveness, you will have to drop the desire to dominate.
To have meditativeness you will have to drop your whole mind, your whole thinking process. To be blissful you will have to drop your old habits of being miserable. They are very deeply ingrained in you, because you have been miserable for so long that you have started taking the misery for granted - that this is how life is.