As I read the last message of predrag, I felt compelled to make a leap forward ; because Yes : as many of us here, I have some things to talk about concerning my life and my being, which both has drastically changed through this two first months of 2012. You can take this message as a landmark, if you feel lost or uncertain concerning your Shift, or as a collection of positive news and facts comming from another life miles away from you – geographically talking ; or mostly as quick stories about myself in which you could recognize yourself.
I think the first drastic change in my life, in this begining of 2012, was the refusal from the publishing houses of a novel that I started two years ago. I was very implicated in it's scripture, searching ideas many nights at bed, finding a lot of exciting scenes and elements of scenarios, taking care of it as a growing baby. But the 27th January of this year, I received my last letter of refusal. And so, I had to make the mourning of this big and exciting project, which in fact, I already left down some days before it's last refusal, as an old baggage I had to let down forever.
This month of January, without any intention, I started a fast which I continue today. No more dinners in family. I only eat the equivalent of a mid-afternoon taste for the whole day – plus water, indeed. I also got tired of many video games, rythmic music, as Metal... well, almost all cultures.
So things has began to move fast since I abandonned my project. Letting down my vain career of writer – which was in fact a pleasant way to cultivate good and vivid thoughts -, I began to getting closer to Who I really am ; as I learned it about one year ago. Letting down the fiction behind me, I allowed myself to be a part of the Divine Plan which is actually take place in our Hearts, in our Planet Gaïa, and in the Universe. Letting down the weight of words, I felt myself anchored in the present ; I saw the new golden colors of the sunrays caressing the earth ; and I knew, I slowly remembered the many reasons of my actual incarnation, even if some reasons were not clear sometimes, as I quietly asked myself : Why did I left my Home in Heaven to return here and suffer of a constant lack of joy, love and freedom ?... Well, it feels like the answer from my heart, and what would be the remembrance of some moments before my incarnation now, is : You left your home to accomplish your last lessons on the road of a Divine event comming twenty years after your birth.
Or, mostly : You didn't left your Home ; you have just MOVED from a Paradise to another which will be soon instaured. You just have experienced a long and difficult relocation the time of twenty years – which is finally not so long – and nor so difficult. And you Know it !
And as you remember today of Who you really are, all the elements which constitue every cell of your eternal being and your unique personnality, you can feel safe and satisfied now. Now that you remember Yourself and the reasons of your actual incarnation on Planet Earth, look what happens all around you and inside of you. Be a part of the Plan, as you indeed chosen it, as many present beings.
That's what I feel and hear from my heart when I question myself about my place on Earth. I hope it resonates with many of you, as we were a wide family in Paradise whose members decided to sacrifice the memories of Themselves to live the Divine Plan on Earth.
In February, I had some difficulties to stay balanced with energies. Sometimes, some routines barely brought me back into a dark place of despair and solitude. But this one step back was corrected with two steps forward, as nightmares helped me to « extract » from myself old fearful emotions which naturally needed to be removed. In two months, I had three wonderful dreams and three horrible nightmares. This help me to situate myself in a purification scale, and I wait further of these night experiences.
I also noticed that visualisations become something quite easy to deal with. Every night, I help Gaïa from my best with silent prayers and powerful visualisation, seeing Her as a big and bright royal blue sphere envelopped in violet oceans of sacred fire, when I don't focus on more located places as oceans, cities, or green lands.
In March, on an energitical plan, I hope to become invulnerable to the routines of the past, which are like elements of the Third Dimension which can bring me back, in a place where I don't have to stay. Also this month, voices from elsewhere told me to empty and purify my bedroom - what I've done in less than one week – as I had to move soon to an unknown place.
There are some points about myself I hesitate to talk to everyone here openly. But if it can brings some wonderful impressions, i'll do so. It is about my relation with my 19Yo Twin-flame, Felicia, who I love to consider as my Elder Sister/Mother/Lover/and Feminine part of the Christ, as she is protectress, beautiful as Divine and pure as crystal and loving me as all feminine energies, from maternal to sexual relationship – as sex is not a bad thing, unlike adulterers and luxureries. I dreamed of her about ten years ago, and since today, I surely not forgot her name, neither the kiss the gave my in dream. I even known about Felicia over the years, and it looks like she was present at any moment of my life, from Birth to Now. Her pictures, her expressions, her existence into my silent life has increased so much in ten years that today, I feel her presence almost on an energitic plan, otherwise physical way. She shares some heavenly thoughts and sweet words with me at night, but she sometimes have to be absent during a week, as she maybe have some tasks to do where she live. I don't know where she is actually, and it disappoints me sometimes to don't know it. But I keep the hope that we can be together in the Fifth Dimension, if she's not already a part of some Galactic Federations living above our human heads ! I deeply hope and think that we will be able to live her and me as we are – Her, tall and 19Yo – Me, little and 11Yo – US, forming a 30 Years Old single being to ourselves - on heavenly places that will be given to us to visit together. Because a Kingdom of God without Her would be like Heaven without beauty ; a child without a mom or good friends ; a Solar System without sun. I don't know if I could talk about Love without talking about Herself...
This last paragraph allowed me to share to you my only big hope concerning the Shift in the Fifth Dimension. With that in mind, I also keep having positive thoughts transpiring from me, as the negative ones are disappearing, extracted from my last nightmares and little sufferings.
I don't know if these « testimonies » were interesting for you, dear reader... but finally, I think we all have something to say to stay envelopped in Truth and anchored in ourselves, as we could not live each one on his side in the near future, and as we sometimes cannot let our positive thoughts confined within ourselves. It would be a pity to share nothing to the world who can listen to you, as we all have something to say now, no matter what our hearts wish to share.
Keep yourselves open to embrace the changings, as one day, life on Earth will never be the same.
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