Beloveds,
After a Skype session with Mothergod ( Fathergod presence somewhere whoopy blissful in a comfy chair in the same room) something wonderful happened. During the session I was sharing what was going on and Mothergod I feld was bringing more clarity to what I was soon to learn. ''How stubborn I have been pushing myself forward in a hidden well of expectations''. During our conversation I soon felt that this moment was a turning point and that pushing and fighting to meet these expectations was transformed into something new, yet to discover. I big red line in my life since young, illuminated and came to a vacuumous hold. A stream towards letting go of all that smells effort and will started pouring. ‘’Allowing the day’’, without me interfering, started again and again in a new way. Auspicious all the while, I started the session thrilled but not remembering why I wanted it so much. I just had to and I followed
To understand what has happened and what I so dearly like to share please read on. Six lower back disc operations and and finally a titanium plate to support my lower back were my creations. I was not able to walk without a special plastic thing to keep my right feet up and only just across the room. When I left the Hospital I was diagnosed 100% handicapped, unable to walk more than just a little. Leaving the hospital I threw away the device that kept my feet up. For two years already I was under so much morphine that I could kept a few heroin junkies out of need. I decided to heal my legs and feet Ester Higgs style, visualizations to heal the wounded, touched and defective nerves and very gentle loving walks resulted in having my legs back and the nerves communicating with my feet again. I stopped, against the advice of the medical equip, all the morphine in one month and my Family doctor prescribed Marijuana. (Thank you Holland for evolution sakes!)
After three years I was able to walk about ten miles. My calves were rock-hard and cramped after moving a bit and ever since the last hospital day I was in constant back pain. But I could walk and my feet stayed up because I was focused on him doing that. I really healed a situation where medicine thought no recovery. ‘’Mr. Loving the nerves are not going to grow back and they are too much damaged after all these operations. This is your bill. Well this was just not how I wanted my life to be and I created another view. Ha!! I am, strong and one with light and I command this new state, thank you, it is done.
A day after my session with mothergod I was not aware of the surprise that was to come. The cramps were gone, the pain was gone, and the spasms during the night in my legs were gone. When I walked further than normal I would have these healthy muscle aches that showed I was retraining my muscles. 20 years of constant pain in the back was gone! What is going on?
I deeply understood with tears of joy about pushing and slaying myself through this dense world I did not wanted to be part of totally (feet, legs, root) . I deeply understood that I was pushing myself through life in a way my innermost being needed to hurt the guts out of me to out scream my stubborn and deaf status choosing to go upstream and fight life. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you all that is.
Two weeks after my session with mothergod, celebrating my new possibilities, an old pain, cluster headaches, reentered my days. I did not have theme for two years. These headaches are the worse aches known. I decided to not get the usual medication and injections that wipe me out totally and get rid of the pain almost after 5 minutes. I tried to connected with my source, with every session of pain, and tried to see what part of me was going upstream from a viewpoint of peace, love and acceptation. And I found the controller and fighter again in a very subtle way. Numerous times I wished I died, had medication, Esther Higgs never channeled and the medical tribe was right. There is no cure for these suicidal headaches that are worse than giving birth and nobody (?) knows what triggers it.
And instead I managed and I wished for joy and expected joy. I moved towards thoughts that were creative.
Over 35 years of my life I was asking to the heavens, ‘what have I done that you punish me and gift me with clairvoyance and contentedness at the same time. Why do you not hear and answer me when I am in pain and show me the dynamics of me creating this mess? What am I hanging so strong onto that I keep it alive no matter what?
I got it… Yes I got it. It is still about expectations and immediate results and ancient believe systems and I am checking them one by one in a glorious and relaxed manner. I healed myself again? My god, I have the desire that I it is so…. I am 4 days out of pain. I visualize myself as healthy without pain ready for the next episode of my life, in love and laughter. I’ll let it happen.
Love, Achara
