I had this crazy thought the other day: “Who am I?”
Immediately after, everything I had read in the realm of spirituality came to mind. Words from Eckhart Tolle, Neale Donald Walsch, Leo Tolstoy then the words of my mother, things I had told clients, my friends and the like.
They were all really interesting responses but they were essentially bullshit. According to everyone else, I am a globule of energy, a daughter, a soul, helpful, beautiful, fat, too skinny, sickly looking, healthy, brave, lazy, selfish AND selfless… to name a few. I was confused. Who was right?
Instead of getting caught in the waves of conflicting beliefs and riding whichever one I picked for the day, I stopped. I pulled out and became an observer. I realized I have been trying to swim in the storm of loving intentions. How can I navigate through these well-meaning thoughts and words?
No wonder I’m confused. No wonder sometimes I don’t know if I’m coming or going. I have a difficult time making decisions, no kidding! No wonder I do things sometimes that I think will make me happy and I find that I’m not smiling as I do them. Those decisions are based on other people’s viewpoints, not my own.
The only way out of this stormy sea was to start from scratch.
I needed to let it all go.
