This is what My Beloved sang to Me this morning as I claimed her Mine. My Beloved sang:
“Beloved God, what shall I say to You today? In what way shall I express My love for You? How do I say it? What words can contain My love for You? How do I establish My love for You on Earth? How do I announce You? How do I begin?
“My heart cries out that the die is cast. It is out of my hands. I, a commoner, fell in love with You, the Majesty of the Universe and of my heart. What is it about You that I fell on my knees, wanting to kiss Your hem the first moment I saw You, and my own voice was numbed?
“I had heard about You as a stranger. Either You were a foreigner, or I was. You were an idea. No bell ever rang in My heart.
“Then You appeared before me. My heart started clanging and wouldn’t stop. I tried to run away. Then Your eyes followed me and caught me like a fish, and I was caught, and it was impossible for me to let You out of my heart. You were my every thought. You were my every word. I was caught in the net of Your love. I could not escape Your eyes. My heart could not leave Yours. What was going to happen to me? My life was out of my hands. Somehow, Your eyes had alighted on mine. You had found me. I was lost to myself. My life fled, and I was lost. You were too much for me. I was in despair. I wanted to say Your Name, and I could not.
“Yes, I did want to serve You, but like a bird on the wing. I was not capable of giving all of myself to You. I had to reserve some of myself to myself. You did not understand. I was not ready for You. I begged you silently: ‘Wait until I am ready.’
“You would not wait. You claimed my heart. You would not let me go. You would not let me take a step back. You would not let me come and go. Your eyes followed me. Your Voice galumphed in my heart. You abducted me. You pierced my heart. You had me walk through some kind of fire. You kidnapped me. I was no more. I was reduced to ashes of myself. There was no escape from You.
“How I faltered. How I went through throes of love for You and felt so far away from myself. I could not find me anywhere any longer. Wherever I looked, there were You, not in hiding but fully in front of me, barring my way wherever I attempted to wander. I had to get away from You. You were too much for me. You took me seriously. Your eyes were like jewels from another land. Your heart was warm and viable. You exchanged my crumpled heart for Your vibrant heart. What was left of me?
“I could not go back to the desert where I had lived all my life. You had stolen me into Your Palace in an Oasis of Love. There was no ransom I could offer You in order to get away. I was caught in the innocence of Your eyes. I was branded with Your love.
“I was not ready for Your love. Have mercy on me, God. I cannot bear Your love. I failed in love all my life.”
I, God, whispered in your trembling ears:
We are One, beloved. You can no longer pretend you are separate. I have claimed you My Love. I will not take My Word back. Once uttered, My Word is indelible. There is nothing in the world that will erase the Words I gave to you. We are betrothed. Love has been announced. It is Our betrothal. There is no longer you and I. We are One Commingled. I am you, and you are I. There is no telling Us apart. This is the Wedding of Love.
