self experiences

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I  come from the answer, not the question. In a death experience you learn so much of what this reality truly is and what it is truly not. There no difference that you can compare it to, your imagination can not reproduce it from the telling of someone's story experience. What you hear and the way you hear it, goes beyond the 5 senses. It goes above and beyond far away from the senses, living in the 5 senses is always what we truly know until something shatters that reality. Even a small glimpse of something spiritual begins to unteather the reality.

Most are seeking from the questions to the answer, coming from the answer is knowing 

being caught in two worlds, this and the next as some have done excellent job in coming from the questions to the answer in there openness and how they realize the internal workings.

Is easy to say, you can repeat memorize words of others and reflect from the mind sounds wonderful and never touches the heart, where the pain and suffering lies, when people talk and revel from the soul do you hear the crying.

 

I awoke in a vision state once there was a noise that awoke me, i could see a shadow on the other side of the room it was crying sobbing it was curled up tight, it was staring at me I could intuitively feel it, I went over to this shadow to see who this was, than i felt it, saw it, it was me apart of me that was alone and cold without love desiring me to love it, staring at me while I slept night after night, I never realized it was there, how did apart of me get there in such a state. I reach out and hugged it loved it and I instantly woke up.

 

Things like this will always disturb you even when your awake your reflection inwards now reflects outwards, it will always rattle you deeply within, the realizing of energy and allowing the flow to circulate life through one, you can never see it in others until you seen it felt it in yourself first, experience always reflects.

 

I read a chapter from a book where staring into a mirror into your own eyes is where you connect, I never thought any of this, thought it crazy talk, look at my self many times in a mirror not the first time, daily we see ourselves in a mirror not realizing the soul connection from our eyes, it's our eye balls big deal, until you stare and gaze deep within do realize what's there hidden from view, you will feel it stare back. Looking into the abyss some call it, when it looks back at you. 

 

I felt it stare back it was not the prettiest thing I thought it was, I crying afterwards I had to break the stare off I could not look at it anymore it was just awful, that is when I had the vision of it that night, it was a great healing even tho my death experience happen 18  years before, an experience does not make a guru, does not grant you immunity to ascension, there is much work to relive relove, blowing pretty colors and pixie dust waiting for ascension to come from others is an illusion, part of the ignorant in ignorance common to all people and is natural to nature born into this inherent concept. 

 

Think of it of not crossing the rainbow bridge because you can not see the bridge from the heart, not seeing the bridge you will look down and fear the darkness and the fall before you.

same fear that cries weeps and stares at you while you sleep, alone and longing for love.

You have to love self first before you love others back, you will always be attracted to others that love you, going from one to the next trying to fill a void within, left with a sensation that never gets full filled.

 

Were just unaware of these things are minds are taught to ignore this as it does not make money makes us soft in a competitive world, our world will fill our needs and desires by being productive, we become brainwashed like those who came before us.

The infinite one, has designed the route path and has placed obstacles riddles rules of love, were predictable from ignorance and being ignorant, knows us already and what were going to do, we think were cleaver smart intelligent from the mind and we can by pass reroute by thinking around it, our ego and freewill will lie and play in our imaginations comes up with crazy stories and solutions. When the heart comes into play the ego and freewill disappear as they can dwell there, they have no abilities no power there, no influences. 

 

The ego and freewill will run, book it dano! fear keeps them alive and well. That becomes a pattern a habit from conditions of life, you become predictable out of fear and survive in the mind where it is safe from feeling and go through the motions of emotion and you attract others in the same boat, yet you are attracted to light beings they have what you so secretly desire. They talk and act differently not realizing you are the same unaware, ignorant in ignorance. you can mimic them but as predicted never have what they have in life. Angry upset cheated depressed unaware of these internal reflections turning back to the mind to compensate in defense and offense.

 

Self experience will always reflect this, to see it in self, before it can be seen in others, to heal it, forgive it, to realize it, gain knowledge from, and articulate wisdom, a paradigm.

reciting others words from the mind will never do it, lacks the experience in reflection, becomes predictable, seen miles away, a faint light that just needs to see itself but won't  from fear.

I forgive you.

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