REALIZED – SACRILEGE AHEAD

I heard that the Essenes in particular were experts at forgery. They would make three or four seemingly authentic and legitimate religious texts, and only one would be 100% accurate, the others just varying shades of bogus.

I have thought a lot about that lately. After several months of everything being highly significant and relevant, some things have finally begun to fall away from my awareness.

It is as if I have gone through a long period of trying on everything in my closet. Every trend and fashion, from, “Without you, I am nothing,” to “A woman needs to have a career before she settles down,” to “Death is the end of my imagination.” I have twirled and sashayed in these old outfits, some for the last time. Many have disintegrated since I last tried them on. Some are lying in my dresser drawer, waiting for me to need them again. Others I wear daily, but only as accent pieces.

I mention this because there are certain conditions, certain situations, which simply no longer trigger me. I watch people react as they always do to these situations, and the emotions accompanying the phenomena just seem like an exhausting exercise in self discovery. Indeed it is.