Just chill out, would you? That's the thought that pops in my head feeling I am stuck not quite knowing where I need to go.

It is strange. I have the perfect opportunities showing up in my career life but not rushing in. In fact, I have no juice for it. Although it feels as if something is coming out of the dark tunnel, it is not quite clear enough to say "I'm home!" I look at my natural talents and my passions to see where they can be best used. But I cannot see very clearly at this moment. I could beat myself up or simply take a step back and wait.

It is scary to take a step back when surrounded with incertitude. And that is basically it. Things are changing and not too many understand where anything is going.

One thing is for sure. I want peace. I want a change. I want something new. I hate to leave behind something I loved and earned my place with, but I feel it is time. I am just not sure what, where, and when. So I will sit on the dock of this bay, watching time go by until the doors open again. And that is one weird feeling of being inactive!

Welcome to Brenda's Blog

In the midst of the turmoil and world chaos, I see that deep down I am as calm and centered as can be. How could I be anything else?

Maybe it simply boils down to what is made available to us as a whole. I feel it is more about what we chose to concentrate on. Turn on a TV, if you still have one of those things and you can see a constant stream of negative news and entertainment designed to make you want more. The same thing happens on social media. My Facebook wall is so polluted with negative finger-pointing, uni-level points of view, and well-meaning intentions. It is so ugly, I do not read a thing on it. It is hard to not walk away feeling it is the end of the world. And perhaps it is but an end of life, it is not.

I was born in a world where people used rotary phones, did not lock doors and electric magnetic fields (EMF) were few. Today, we are bombarded with the next greatest and "bestest". G5 promises faster connection speeds while many sound the health and environmental alarm.

The tough part is that the vast majority everywhere listen to mainstream news. Considering five companies hold all news outlets in the US, it is hard to imagine we have access to fair, impartial, and unbiased news. Considering how big businesses conduct themselves and looking into their business model, it is not too difficult to see there is a fundamental underlying problem. Between what they say and what they do, there is a world of differences.

Still, within the safety of my "inside", there is calm. It is almost as if there is a wise person sitting, looking. observing, and not getting excited about anything. Neither happy nor sad, this inner entity watches with an anchored confidence. There is a hint of a "make the transition now or wait for a few more decades", but overall, things are going according to divine Universal intention.

The human makeup is perfectly well made up. We can handle a lot, process almost anything, and establish healthier foundations. But stand in the way of processing, push it away to eventually deal with it later and the problems exponentially grow. In other words, chase away unresolved problems, they will come back with insistence. Might as well resolve it now. It only gets tougher the longer you wait.

Cannabis and alcohol are strange substances. Alcohol is perfectly accepted in most cultures and even has medicinal values. Cannabis is not as accepted and has medicinal values. Both work wonder in temporarily putting away problems to the side. But problems do not resolve themselves on their own. That is why we sleep. So that we can process, order, arrange and learn from what we experienced. Without sleep, we put things to the side. We might use cannabis and alcohol to alleviate stress, but the problems remain.

EMDR (Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) was invented in order to deal with old traumas that were not properly processed earlier. The reason why it works is that it lets us re-experience a traumatic event and letting the human psyche deal with it in a natural way. Progressive Counting also works very well I hear.

The human psyche is well done. It can tolerate so much and when limits have been reached. It can turn itself off. That is why so many who have been molested or raped talk about not being there, being removed from the event, as if their mind had been removed and taken elsewhere. It is the way our psyche deals with traumatic events. It shuts down temporarily and deals with it later, usually at night during sleep.