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I AM DOROTHY SMALL AND MEEK

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November 23, 2012: 2:50 am PST

Back in the days when television was relatively new, we could only watch movies when they were "on." Every year at Thanksgiving "they" would put on the movie "The Wizard of Oz." We really looked forward to seeing that movie each year, although we did not realize at the time that it was a movie about transformation and other worlds. At least it was for me.

I recall so clearly how Dorothy, the little girl from Kansas, was swirled out of the black-and-white greyness of her life in Kansas into the bright colorful world of Oz. How they communicated through a "magic mirror".

My favorite part was near the beginning, when Dorothy's house fell on a "wicked witch" and killed her, and Munchkinland rejoiced with tremendous glee. As Dorothy came out of her house, dazed, dizzy and confused, everyone was singing and cheering and dancing with great joy. The "Good Witch of the North", Glenda, asked Dorothy who she was and how she knew to come and help them escape from their servitude. Then Glenda called, "Come out, come out, wherever you are, and meet the young lady who fell from a star.

She fell very fast, she fell very far, and Kansas she says is the name of the star." Dorothy was a bit confused by this, but being a brave and kind spirit, she was happy that the Munchkins were happy, although she felt a bit weird about having killed someone quite by accident and then being acclaimed as a hero for doing it.

Then she and her little dog, Toto, began their amazing journey, which of course included going to see the Wizard of Oz, to find out how Dorothy could go Home. She had to be quite bold in order to get in to see the Wizard, and then one of my favorite transitions occurred:  He announced himself in a puff of smoke behind a screen, and he said "I am the Wizard, Strong and Mighty," or something like that... and Dorothy actually steps forward and says "I Am Dorothy, Small and Meek."

GEM AND MINERAL SHOW

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We had a gem and mineral show in the lounge here, and it was quite wonderful to be with all those lovely rocks. But when I came back the chat room was empty. These things happen.

But I want to tell you, love,

love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love love

and more love

and more and more love

and love for everybody and love love love love and

LOVE.

Astreia-PlaysWithRocks

THIS MORNING

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Wow. I didn't wake up till after ten am, and my bed was surrounded by nurses. They stayed to be sure that I was not wobbly on my feet, and one of them stayed longer and had a lengthy conversation with me to be sure I was in touch with reality. LOL!

I know I need to go to sleep earlier, but here it is almost one am and - well, at least I feel tired.

Friends came over to help me unpack, and that was much appreciated. But it meant that I also missed lunch - forgot all about it. But we got a lot done. I am so fortunate!

Love, Astreia

DECEMBER 21, 2012

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December 21, 2012, is the day my son arrives to visit. He plans to be here till New Year's day, and then to go spend time with his friends from the college he graduated from.

Wow! If we ascend on December 21, who will he be visiting? Well, probably I will still be here to visit with him but I will be very different than he remembers me as being. I already am.

If I can persuade him, I will try to bring him online so you can see him. He is the one who taught me unconditional love, and I am the one who taught it to him.

I'd absolutely love it if a spacecraft might come to my patio while he is here...then I'd like to see how he maintains his ultra-rational views....

I recently realized that these messages we send actually get put on google!!! So I will be taking this message down soon.

Love, Astreia

DALAI LAMA

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Oh, no, I saw the Dalai Lama in my meditation last night. And I KNOW that he is not my twin flame so I guess what I see means nothing.

Today I began deleting my old blogs, except for those with many comments and those with poetry. I plan to copy the poetry down, since it came spontaneously out of my memory and I still like it. The others, I will read the comments and then delete them.

I can see that I have grown and learned much, but apparently not enough yet.

Love, Astreia

THE EYE OF THE NEEDLE

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While in meditation, I saw a very large rock, so big that I could not see it all. And I saw a small crevice in the rock and a pale light shining on the other side.

It's the eye of the needle!! I thought, and my vision came closer to it and saw indeed that it was a small passageway. How can I get through?

I asked for help, and saw curving rays of white light come through from the other side to me. When I could see them more closely, I realized that they were angels flying. Some came to the side where I was and some remained on the other side.

They picked me up like an infant and carried me through the passageway, handing me to the angels on the other side. I started to turn to look back, but the angels whispered "don't look back."

When I reached the other side of the passageway, I saw the violet flame. Then I saw all kinds of beings without knowing who they might be. Some of them were funny things we have seen here, like that frog. Then many colors blasted into my eyes. I never came back.

I seem to have passed through the eye of the needle. And it is 4 am and I am very tired, but I am happy that I stayed up so late because it was a late-night meditation that brought this experience to me.

And I don't fully understand what this means!

Love, Astreia-PIXIE

1972 poem

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This little powem (power poem) snapped into me again last week...finally decided to post it. Wrote it in 1972, the year I divorced Tom:

 

while talking in circles and thinking in cones

and feeling the stress on the bones

caused by walking upright

staying up through the night

i felt the earth pulled

away from one orbit and into another

where god is our brother.

 

Astreia

I WANT TO LIVE IN A CRYSTAL GROTTO

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I WANT TO LIVE IN A CRYSTAL GROTTO

 

I want to live in a crystal grotto

And sleep on a bed of stone

Till my own takes me home,

I want to lie on the shield of water

That sparkles so in the sunlit matter

And think of him till the sky implodes

With the love we all own.

I want the sun to be with me always

Till my own takes me home,

Vivekananda

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Today's Vivekananda Quote


The whole universe is one. There is only one Self in the universe, only One Existence, and that One Existence, when it passes through the forms of time, space, causation, is called by different names, buddhi, fine matter, gross matter, all mental and physical forms. Everything in the universe is that One, appearing in various forms. When a little part of it comes, as it were, into this network of time, space and causation, it takes forms. Take off the network, and it is all one.

 

Complete Works, 2. 461.

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