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DEEP RELEASE OF PAST TRAUMA

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DEEP RELEASE OF PAST TRAUMA

 

It is not enough to say that we are happy, if we are still suppressing deep or unconscious sadness, resentment, fear, trauma, guilt, or any number of other negative emotions. It is not enough to just say they are gone if they are not completely gone.

There are techniques that can help us to release past feelings even if we are not fully aware of those troubling feelings.

One way is to notice when one is upset with someone else. This kind of upset means that the person is somehow activating unconscious pain – or it may be that we perceive their pain and feel responsible for it.

SPACECRAFT DREAM

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Last night I dreamed that a spacecraft hovered over my bed and shone a green light on me.  I could see the opening, but I couldn't reach it. I wanted to go with them, but they didn't "beam me up". But it was a glorious dream nevertheless.

Love and blessings, Astreia

ANOTHER TWIN FLAME POEM

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I sense I may know who you are. I suspect you have given me hints.

But I am not certain, by far, as my feelings are always intense.

I constantly reach out to help -but sometimes my perceptions are wrong.

Like now, I am writing a poem - when what we need is a song.

I tried with my pen and ink to draw a picture of us,

But - I do not think my drawing was worth all the fuss.

We were quite deeply engaged, but not quite fully entwined.

The part that I couldn’t connect had to do with the mind.

ON THE HORIZON

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Written July 20, 1995:

 

ON THE HORIZON

 

I see it on the horizon,

hiding in the sunrise,

hiding in the sunset,

every day coming

a little bit closer,

and I am so puzzled!

 

It is not that I didn't know,

it is not that I didn't think of it,

it is just that

 

if you had never seen a tiger

or a picture of a tiger

and then you saw a tiger in the garden

 

you might run for your camera

screaming out

that is the biggest cat I ever saw!

 

but if someone had told you

what a tiger looked like,

and then said, well,

the tiger will be coming soon

 

but you'd never SEEN one,

 

you might sit by the flowerbeds

watching day and night

jumping at every shadow,

only to wonder

is that the tiger coming now?

 

Faye Hall

 

FINALLY A TWIN FLAME DREAM

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I was very careful in how I asked my twin flame to meet me in a dream. I even told him, "Don't let me see your face because if I know you, it will be even harder to wait for you." So he appeared to me in the form of someone I knew long ago. I don't remember a lot of details, except that there was a lot of humor in it and we were trying to keep it all a secret (probably because I asked him not to show his face). I woke up this morning feeling VERY satisfied, and then my ego-mind started working on it. "Maybe that guy from long ago really IS your twin flame..." But then I remembered that I had said "please don't show your face." Then the telepathic music started in my head, and he sang,

"That boy

isn't good for you,

though he may love you too,

This Boy

wants you back again."

Blessings,

Astreia

HOW INTENSE ARE THE RAYS OF THE SUN....poem

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Written many years ago:

 

How intense are the rays of the sun,

travelling over the eons of space,

radiant clear to the core of my heart -

the place where nothing resists.

How glad I am that there only is one,

one eternal explosion to light my face,

one is enough to render me blind

to everything else that exists.

If only a love were so constant and sure,

never diminished by hurt or by sorrow,

I would not complain if the world filled with pain

disappeared in a blast of extinction.

If only a love were so perfect and pure,

one would suffice for today and tomorrow.

Perhaps the sun alone can claim

Such power and distinction.

 

Blessings, Astreia

A PICTURE MY SON DREW OF ME

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Going through the old boxes of papers, I found a picture my son drew of me when he was about 6 or 7 years old. The title is: LIGHTNING STRIKE MOM.

The picture shows a dragon with it's mouth very wide open shouting BOOM! There is a picture of earth with a dark cloud around the equator and emitting something, some kind of streams.

In the picture of me, I am wearing blue jeans, a red t-shirt, and a red helmet with lighning coming out from the top of the helmet. And I am smiling. I am flying towards a spaceship!!!

The title says, "Lightning Strike Mom Flies to Space With Aliens".

Blessings

Astreia

I MUST APOLOGIZE

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My lower chakras, which I intentionally shut down many years ago, are awakening. I apologize for it happening on screen. When I began reciting the poem from so long ago, I had forgotten how it ended. You all had the not-so-wondrous opportunity of seeing me clear out sorrow right there in front of you.

I was married twice in this lifetime - both were very unusual marriages - and then I met my son's father and we never intended to marry, and didn't. And as soon as my son was conceived, I began shutting down the lower chakras and went through menopause so early that my own doctor did not believe me. Then when my mother died of ovarian cancer and I saw what she went through and how LONG it took, I insisted on a hysterectomy. So I am "spayed." LOL

The poem was true, I actually DID fall in love at the age of three with a skinny accordion player I saw on TV!!! I used to kiss the tv screen whenever he appeared and I adored him. It was on the Lawrence Welk show, anybody here remember that? And then I kept falling in love with people who didn't love me, and that was awful, so once I had my son I thought I was done with it. I decided not to fall in love anymore. And that was what came up when I recited that poem on-screen, I realized that I had made that decision, and it didn't resonate with what I am feeling at these wonderful LOVE parties. Especially now that I am aware of it.

I AM, of course, in LOVE with you all now, but so longing to be with my twin flame! I am mourning whatever I did that has kept us apart for so long and I am crying. I thought I saw him, I thought we were communicating telepathically, and then I remembered that poem and realized what I had done. I had decided at a very young age not to "fall in love" anymore. I think I was about thirteen at the time. I didn't mean not to LOVE, but that man-woman thing was just too intense.

THE OJAI BEAR

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A bear was killed in Ojai, California several years ago. The native "americans" have been holding Bear Ceremonies to honor the bear - the bear is very important to California. There is a picture of a bear on the California flag. But the bear was in someone's yard, and they called Animal Control, who shot the bear, not with tranquilizing darts, but with real bullets. This year will be the last Bear Ceremony. The following is a poem that I wrote on September 12, 2010, the date of the first Bear Ceremony that I personally attended:

 

To The Ojai Bear

Oso, oso,

Ursa, ursa,

BEAR

of pure transcendent glory

We who live

to tell your story

We will love you all our days.

We found you wounded

in the trees,

We cried and beat

our wounded knees,

we wept, we wailed,

we took you home,

but nothing further could be done.

Oso, oso,

Ursa, ursa,

When we name you

we are One.

 

Blessings,

Astreia

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