Abandonment

Our Key Psychological Trauma - Feeling Separated from Source

Maurice Turmel PhD

Beginning:

I came to this earth a long time ago to learn about matter and to immerse myself in this grand experiment called Earth Life in the 3^rd dimension.  I was asked by my guides if I was prepared to do this and of course, I said Yes.

Lately I’ve been feeling shaken to my very core.  The root of my psychological distress has been identified as “abandonment”, separation from the Source of my life.  I know this to be true because I can feel it right down to my bones.

I never realized how important this was until recently when I relived the whole affair through feelings of abandonment vis a vis my parents in this lifetime.  That image of the moment it occurred burns clearly in my psyche.  I was 4 years old, out on the street in front of our apartment building.  A bully had come up to me and threatened me.  I turned around and looked up at our second story apartment window and saw my parents staring down at me, as if to see “what is he going to do?”

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Here I am at 7am in the morning, wide awake, waiting for the other shoe to drop.  I’ve opened myself up to everything and a part of me is definitely scared.  I have to trust now.  I have to trust that the world out there is a reflection of the new world I now hold inside.

I have surrendered! I have let go! I know I can’t control anymore so I’ve let go of everything I once believed was important.  I trust my Self now, and I’m going with the flow, surrendering, letting go.

It’s all I can do.  I’ve rooted out the core of that pain cycle I was in for over 60 years, that primal wound I suffered in childhood and all those defenses that came later as I tried to survive with that open rift that took root inside of me and that I worked so hard to try and deny.

I’ve asked for help, from Source, from family, from my Higher Self, from every Galactic in the neighborhood so I can deal with all immediate problems that have queued up for consideration since I let myself know that I’m open for business- the God business – the business of rectifying my Heart Center as the True North of my being.

Friendship

Sometimes when we are feeling lost and alone, we don’t know which way to turn to renew a friendship.  That close friend we had so long ago seems lost to us now.  They have faded away like so many things from our earlier life.

Are we to believe that we can no longer sustain such relationships?  Are we to let go of all those sources of comfort that once enjoined us and caused us great pride.

Our affections for others are what keep us alive. Our connections to each other invite us to live again, to breathe in, and to satisfy those cravings for friendship we once carried and then set aside for what appeared to be important matters..

 It is untrue that we have to let go of such connections as time marches on.  It is true however, that we have a greater need for each other as the years speed by.

Paying Attention

Attention! Attention! Attention!  This is what is wrong with this place.  We don’t pay enough attention to our external circumstances.  Yes, the inner life is vastly more real.  But the outer life informs that reality.  We look in mirrors when we look out there.  There is no compromise on this point. One informs the other.

When you get up in the morning do you dress yourself with eyes closed?  Of course not.  You look at what you’re doing.  You choose colors according to your mood and your personal sense of style. You look forward to the day and prepare to present yourself in the best possible light.  Plaids do not go with polka dots.

So how is it that we continue to forget and choose to block out certain experiences?  Are we not blinding ourselves to some essential reality?  Of course we are.  This is a survival mechanism.  We’ve been doing it since the dawn of time.  Children do it all the time.  Blocking out unpleasantness is a common strategy until we realize we are re-creating and meeting the same issue and situation over and over again.

Grace & Glory

Glory belongs to the passing era of competition and conquest, when our spiritual lives didn’t seem to matter as much as they do now.  In Grace, we are pointed in a whole new direction where the Self comes to surface and takes us onto a new path toward spiritual wholeness..

       As we are guided toward this mission of mercy, we realize that others’ needs are equal to our own. We are advised that anything is possible, but not as determined by fate as we once thought.  We have choice in all matters, conscious choice.

       Where we take this Grace is up to us at this juncture.  We can overdo it as we did with Glory in our past.  Or we can take a new tack and discover something miraculous about ourselves.  We are truly capable of helping one another, through our respective challenges and we can deliver this assistance with compassion.  We can open to a whole new way of being, not measured by what Glory used as standards for success.