I was awoken three times last night by Jorge.  Very much like in one of the meditations I had several weeks ago…. he was shaking the ba-jesus out of me saying, quite loudly “Aware is not Awake.”  He repeated that line until I actually woke up from sleep.  The first time, exactly midnight.  I got up and went to the bathroom and felt wide awake (not tired at all) but there is no way I am getting up at midnight.  I went back to sleep.  At 1:30am, once again, he is shaking the ba-jesus out of me saying “Aware is not awake.”   I felt like there was so much more information surrounding this both times, but I could not retain it.  Once again, I felt wide awake and actually thought about getting up for the day, but declined.  I have three readings on my schedule and I will be worthless if I got up now.  The last time he did this, at 3:45am I actually got up.

Yesterday, the last day of May felt like a planetary reboot!  I have never been so knocked off my own axis in a very long long time.

My first attempt at reading really started me wondering what was happening.  I couldn’t even pick up the first light particle for my lady at all.  Nothing, nada.  Even trying to hold a coherent conversation was becoming a challenge.  I really had to work my brain to formulate sentences that made sense.

I decided to take a bath before my 2nd reading, hoping I can find some charge to at least see a connection…nope!  The only thing I was able to witness in this attempt at meditation was my entire team from the Pleiades in a portal of energy directly above my heart, looking down and smiling.  That visual lasted long enough for me to notice, then it went away.   I was not finding any of this something to smile about!!!

So, since I was already in my bath I figured I will do something constructive while there.  I took out my double helix DNA and decided to have a go at releasing what I no longer need.

There is something about doing these exercises in a complete and full void that was really disheartening.  As soon as I put my hand on that DNA strand all of a sudden my mind worried about releasing something I loved.  The moment I had that strange thought I put my DNA back, stunned really.  Then I just laughed at myself.  Since when am I worried about releasing something I love.  I am not even sure what was at the root of that thought and maybe, in truth, I didn’t want to know.

I eventually got over myself and brought back that strand and milked it.  I squeezed the strand hard and I could feel something gathering with the downward stroke.  As soon as I got to the very bottom of the strand I heard a ping, like a pebble dropping into my bathtub.  Being in the void I had no way of know what it was, I just know something was removed.

I got out and attempted my 2nd reading… again, a complete blank screen.  Not even a small molecule of light.  I have been in and out of the void all year-long, but always have been able to at least pick up some sort of light… not yesterday!

After rescheduling yet another reading, I decided to sit down and have brunch and watch my boys (Jon Steward and Steven Colbert) on HuluPlus.  I figured I would be grounding and not thinking all at the same time, coupled by some good giggles.

Keep in mind, I get TV thru my DVD blue-ray wifi connection only.  I don’t have cable.  The TV started doing things I have never ever seen it do before.  First it was flickering in and out like a strobe light.  I rebooted the DVD player, same thing happened.  I rebooted again.  Then it just buffered and buffered but oddly enough, in the same exact place each time.

I felt like I was truly in an episode of the twilight zone!  I took to my Galaxy S phone, it was flickering in and out… then would just crash.

What the hell????