DEEPLY AWAKE – ALL WAS ILLUMINATED
It's funny how two minutes or so of my recent life have become, more and more, something that I revisit, and with the passing days, my fascination with those few minutes grows.
I had a Matrix-y experience on Christmas Eve. I knew I was experiencing Truth in those few minutes. Everything was, literally, quite literally, illuminated. I understood. My soul was looking out through my eyes for that brief time, a time of relief, wonder, confirmation, encouragement, beauty, awe, intricacy, complexity.
Instead of green numbers, there was a dizzying, effecting, affecting, brilliant, absorbing benevolence. It's the only word that describes what I now understand physicality is. Physicality is a congealing of, a slowing of, into something flesh can experience, pure and utter and whole and symmetric and encompassing, engrossing, expanding, crashing benevolence.
That's it.
I understood with my BODY that night that me, my kid, my ex husband, his car, our lives, our loves, our fears, our capabilities and our restrictions, our joys, hardships, challenges, pursuits, these were all adventures we are really enjoying! It is all so fascinating and exciting and immediate and thrilling! And all of it, literally and 100%, all of it is made of, MADE of benevolence.
