God said:
You desire this, and you desire that, and what you desire may be at two ends of two different spectrums. You have conflicting desires. You want everything. You may ask yourself: “What do I want more than what I already have?”, and yet you aren’t sure how to choose between two wants that seem to cancel each other.
An example might be that you want a love relationship, and you also may prefer to live alone. If you could have a peaceful loving relationship, you would be glad, yet you fear to tread where you have trodden before where peace is not.
You want to fulfill all your responsibilities, and you would very much like plenty of free time as well.
This is how you are conflicted. You talk back and forth. You talk yourself into an idea, and, in the next breath, you talk yourself out of the idea. You convince yourself that you can't be or have everything. Therein lies the rub.
Come from the idea that you can indeed be and have everything you desire. Come also from the idea that you are not in need, definitely not in desperate need.
Focus on your desires and less on what you believe you may be denied.
Midway is not always the solution. There is always a solution. There is always a way to be found. A way will come to you. Know this: Maybe you don't have to walk both to the left and to the right. Maybe you don't have to figure everything out.
