God said:
So connected to Me are you as you read Heavenletters, yet you are shaken whenever old dishearted-ness starts stirring. You might call this unexpected stage of life Unhappiness Revisited.
You thought you had surpassed dismalness. You thought you were done with all that, yet, apparently, there was more to come. You don’t want it. You have had enough, yet heartache continues. You are bewildered. You are right, life is not supposed to be like this.
You ask yourself:
“Can suffering be no more than my way of thinking? Have I picked up suffering once again? If it’s somehow my choice, I demand to know why I would do that. If I am not the one who chooses this, then I am a hapless victim. Is unhappiness thrust on me, or do I choose it? Why would I?"
You would beat your chest to get this negativity out of your life.
Of course, you have had enough heartache for several lifetimes. It would be helpful if your re-emerging emotional pain would mean it is leaving once and for all. You thought it had already left, and now, here it is again, nipping at your heels.
Life is sometimes heavy on you. This was not supposed to happen. You sit defeated as if in an extended waiting room, waiting when it is your turn to be restored to happiness forevermore.