God said:
Nothing is forgotten. Everything is remembered. Everything you live, you have lived before. It is not new to you. You are reliving it. Parts of the past have been covered up, hidden, put out of sight, forbidden, unacknowledged, most especially to yourself. It is as if Light were something that would endanger you, and, so, you protect yourself from your very Presence.
Of course, brought into the Light, this cover-up will scatter to the winds and be gone, yet there seems to be a mechanism hovering within you tells you that you would do better keep this awareness from the Light.
Revealing hidden terrains and getting past them would indeed free you.
Better to see what is holding you back. Then you can face up to it, shoo away what blocks you, and rise uncluttered. Face up to what ails you, and then you are free to start over in freedom. Every day you can start over.
Odds are that you do carry unnecessary baggage. The baggage of the past slows you down. It trips you up. By ignoring the past, you may like to think you have written it out of your life, yet you repeat yourself, again and again. You refuse to let go of the Voice of the Past that haunts you.
Something may have seemed so awful you couldn't look at it then, and you don't want to look at it now. You fear it would be too much for you, so you collect unwanted emotion and push it down. As you ignore deep feelings, they build their muscle. To the detriment of your joy in life, the Past has made you at its mercy.