Steve Beckow
Photo: Awful? I thought you said an owl-ful.
It’s my private belief that some of us, or perhaps many of us, I don’t know, are being drawn through the eye of the needle at this time.
I’m at this moment going through a process that feels as if I’m like a tube of toothpaste being squeezed and everything at the end of the tube is blackness.
It’s as if everything black, everything bad, everything evil inside me from whenever it hails is gathering at the end of the toothpaste tube and spilling out.
I believe this is a time when all the things that went wrong in our lives, all the misbegotten patterns of behavior, everything we’ve been complaining about, every perpetration we ever did, every foul thing we said or thought is coming up to be re-experienced and released. Or maybe just released. Don’t know yet.
I don’t say this to alarm others. Quite the contrary. I say it to reassure them. If I can go through this, and go through it publicly, woodenhead that I am, anyone can.