In sitting here at Bellano’s, celebrating (and de-zonkifying) from getting my Cosmic Radiance Vehicle thoroughly cleaned (and, yesterday, oil changed), I’ve been sensing a few things.
First of all, I’ve felt extremely tired today. After arising, I soon went back to bed for three hours. Finally, I felt enough energized to clear out all the “stuff” from the car interior so I could get the rather thorough cleaning (and waxing, and shining).
Now, sitting at Bellano’s, it just feels so warm, yet also there is quite the disconnected sense regarding everyone else around. Sort of like their world is not at all connected to mine. And that’s all okay.
Whatever that means, well, I’m not sure, but this “separation of worlds” I used to occasionally hear about, seems all but here. Now.
And I’m feeling a great sense of relief that this Journey is concluding, yet also a desire and maybe even a “pressure” to assist it in finishing in what you might call, “Perfection”. Whatever that means (yes, Roberto, I know I use that phrase a lot… but I just enjoy giving some of you the chuckles once in a while…).
I have a map of California in front of me. Sometimes I get a sense of what the next directions by scanning one. I have “offers”and “suggestions” and “mental only statements” (from my mental) that have offered up ideas like, Lake Tahoe, San Francisco, Humboldt Redwoods Park, Crescent City, and, of course, the “Grand Costco” of Redding.
That’s the closest one to Shasta.